It's about life

1st October 2011

2011-10-01T19:09:00.002+08:00

A day left in Miri where I'll be going to an oil palm mill to work. Yes, I'm hired but it's not permanent since it's a 6 months probation.

So, I won't be able to online or do whatsoever on my laptop other than watching movies that I've downloaded. A mixed feeling really, at once I'm feeling excited going but I'm nervous in a way too because it's been a year since I've graduated and not dealing with engineering work since.

It'll be a challenge for me and hopefully I can do what I can or know. Dealing with people is another thing.

So yeah, at least it's a new start now with the hope of liking the job and the people there. My heart tells me otherwise. Anyway, I'll do what I can.

It's 2 hours drive from Miri town, so it's quite a far into the jungle area. Well, probably not a jungle but a flat plantation. Maybe I'll be back every weekend, which I hope it will be. Hah~

Even if this blog is dead, at least I'm updating it before it really goes dead forever now. Who knows I'll be blogging back again during the weekends. Maybe not so often though.

May God lead me through this job of mine. =)

2011-04-30T00:05:00.002+08:00

I envy people with happy family. That happiness, it's almost transparent for me now. I never seen any of it since I was a kid. Yes, there are times that things going good.

But it doesn't last long. Every single month, it always happens. Till now, it still happens.

How I always wish I would have a proper family.

Now, when things happened I'm to be blamed. And it will always be me.

Help wasn't being appreciated. No one listens to me as if I'm transparent. I'm the bad guy now. And, my bad temper is back.

Facing cell group members or the church, it's almost fake as if I'm happy. But inside, nothing.

However I wished, it would become worst day by day.

2011-04-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

It has been a while now. Sometimes things aren't seem good, sometimes it's a blessing. It has been 2 weeks and I'm started to think what is the point to come back.

Somehow, when I looked at myself I was like, What? I just did that? In a way, things are not easy at the moment. Trying to help out, but things are rather complicated. Am I selfish?

Seeing myself on the road, it's like I'm getting worst and worst day by day. Can I even have a peace at heart for a while so that I don't think and worried too much?

God spoken through my friends tonight and it struck me. I don't know how I felt honestly, but I know if I don't change now and forever be this way no one would ever look on to you for help since I can't help myself now.

Anyway, it's something that I need to release telling it out. Still, a question pop out from a cell group member. What's you plan tomorrow? Next month? These are the things that I need to know. Otherwise, I'll be in a wrong direction.

Or should I wait for God's answer? Sigh...

Oh Lord, work into my life. I'm still clueless of the things I did and for the things I wanted to do.

T_T

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2011-03-17T22:50:00.001+08:00

Is it me or is it the hit counter shoot up till 99,236??!!

Scary!

Wah!!

2011-03-06T23:26:00.002+08:00

Few months passed and I don't remember how long I've not been updating my blog. It's dead! =.=

Anyway, thing have been just okay in Miri. Joined new church and still getting to know the people. As usual, I don't talk very well. Not face to face though. Haha...

KaiSeng, wanted me to update to I'll be updating a little bit. Cause nothing really happen in my life since I came back here.

Church was okay for now. Have been joining the cell group and trying to get to know more of the people. The church member are very friendly to me and I'm surprised that for the churches I've been, this is the best so far. Of course, I'm not judging about the other church of being not good. I'm just saying it's suitable for me. :)

Chinese New Year was awesome. Been spending a lot times together with my family since my sister is back together for reunion dinner. Lots of laughter and joke all around.

Jobs? I haven't really start to apply yet cause there's still things that I might need to settle. Some people might know about this. But, some don't know. So it's complicated. xD

I'm going to try to apply for one of the oil and gas company in Miri since one of my church member is in the company asking me to write-in. So, I hope my poor results doesn't scare them away. Haha~

Well, that's all I suppose. Anything interesting I will try to update more.

God bless everyone. ^.^

2010-12-06T00:03:00.003+08:00

Didn't really update my blog so much lately. Just that my life has been just boring. Nothing much is happening. Everything is just the same routine all the time.

Getting back to Miri is like sleeping. When you started to get comfortable, you don't feel like waking up to do something different. You'll just lay down on the bed, slacking.

Usually, I would get homesickness when I'm staying in KL. But I've found the life that I wanted there. I miss being there with friends.

Now, when I'm back in Miri I just don't feel like staying here. When you're somewhere out there but not in your own home, your parents would nag everyday on asking you to come back home. Then again, once you're back home, they also nag nonstop since they are talking in front of you.

I was like, what is this? I don't come back, you kept nagging asking me to come back. Now when I'm back home, you kept on nagging also. =.="

But all is fine, and I know it's for my own good. Parents do nag, and when you become a parent you will nag towards your children too. xD

Somehow, I just don't see the point of coming back in Miri other than seeing my parents. Even coming back here, I have to think about the personal problem in the family that I'm facing. Whatever happens, it will just make me feel miserable. Emo!

Things happened, and I asked my friend about this. Why do I have this kind of problem? It's not about once or twice, but for my whole life. But my friend told me this, "Count your blessings!".

One thing I'm happy of is, I get to meet up my old friends. Talk nonstop together and laughter. This is one blessing, this should be enough for now. In this life, be grateful and whatever happens it would be just a temporary matter.

Another thing is, about the church. Somehow, I'm not that happy about it. Just felt left out by the church members. My teacher, who is also the church member told me that everyone thought that I'm from KL. =.=

But of course, one of my biggest disadvantage is not being initiative enough to communicate. Recently, I've kept everything to myself. Somehow, my heart was 'closed'. I'm not that happy. But of course, I'm still in need of God's guidance.

Whatever happens for the days to come, I hope I'm able to go through it. With God's grace, I'm sure everything will be okay.

May God bless everyone! Make your life full of joy! Christmas is coming and let's celebrate the birth of Our Lord Jesus Christ!

Lastly, I miss speaking in English. xD

2010-11-07T23:35:00.002+08:00

Had a chat with friends tonight. Felt that I'm back in KL. xD

Really missed the time in KL though.

Today after Sunday service, I went for refreshment and had a fellowship together with new people. Honestly, I don't really felt at ease yet. I'm still trying to adapt.

And it's also the first time after a month, the Pastor came talking to me. :)

He intro to me a group leader of a cell group and exchanging numbers together. Still, in the church now I only know 3 to 4 people other than my teacher and her son.

Let see how it goes for the month to come.

Job hunting has currently stopped and I'm still looking forward to return back to KL. Had just applied for Shell this afternoon. Just trying my luck on it for now. :)

God bless everyone. :)

Miri

2010-10-28T22:55:00.002+08:00

2 weeks I'm back in Miri. Lack of updates here. Not happening much either. Just work and all. Still helping my dad around at the office. Were busy some of the times but also there's boring time.

Have been thinking about how would my life goes. Not sure when to go back KL, or stay in Miri permanently. Still waiting for the answer.

The church I went was okay. Not used to the Methodist style. Still, I love how it was done in the church I went in KL. Miss the friends in KL too. Also, frisbee. I hardly get any work out since I got back. Being in the office with work really makes me tired.

Once off office hour, went back home straight. Didn't go for any exercises. I don't even know who is in Miri. The other day I was holding this frisbee disk that I bought last year. I went to the backyard and threw. No one to play with. How sad.

Anyway, still deciding on my job here. Until something is settled maybe I'll consider going back to KL again. :)

ConneXion Semenyih, miss you guys a lot.

God bless!

Yesterday was in Semenyih, today I’m in Miri

2010-10-08T00:37:00.001+08:00

So, finally the day where I’m going back to my hometown Miri. Honestly, it felt weird going back home.

Used to stayed in Semenyih already and I don’t really miss my hometown at all for the past few months. Maybe I’m enjoying too much here.

One part of the things that I enjoyed here was hanging out with the ConneXion Semenyih gang. Other than that, going to church and praising God. That’s what I’m enjoying the most.

Holy Spirit is working through us all, guiding the people around and telling them how Great Our God is.

In Miri, I’ve never been a permanent church member. You’ll either see me this week and probably not in the next few weeks. Now, I’m telling this to myself “I will serve God where ever I go”.

Good luck to everyone on their starting of the academic year and hopefully I’ll see you all back here again. I started to miss everyone already.

It’s sad, but I have to go back seeing the condition, and depended on God. Whether I’ll stay in Miri or KL, I’m still waiting for God’s answer.

Love you guys always! Keep it up and spread the word of God!

Last week in West Malaysia

2010-10-04T00:25:00.001+08:00

So, it’s finally the last week in West Malaysia. Had a lot of fun with friend hanging out. Going to miss my friends here.

But of course, life moves on and I’ll see what’s coming next when I go back to Sarawak. Plenty of comfort zone in Miri, but one thing I hope is that I continue to go to church and also try to exercise more.

Church have been great, learn a lot of things and of course made a lot of new friends although I’m much older than the youth.

Wanted to take this opportunity to thank my friends for guiding me all the while. I know it’s too early to write this but it’s been so long that I never update my blog.

And also, wanted to apologize for the emo-ness post earlier. xD

Of course, with God’s blessing I will see what comes ahead of me and thankful for that.

God bless everyone and hoping you all will do well in studies and career.

A day without doing anything useful

2010-09-17T15:42:00.001+08:00

It’s a rainy day.

Woke up quite early because of my phone’s alarm. Snoozing it quite a few times. Hm, wait I snoozed my phone from 9am till 10am. Adui~ xD

The actual plan for today was to go to Lowyat. But turns out raining earlier and change the plan to Sunday.

Does any of you ever thought of why something happened on you? As in, if something happened do you turn to God askin why it happened or do you turn to yourself asking was it your fault?

A question that’s have been in my mind for quite sometime already.

Windows Live Messenger 2011 Beta

2010-09-16T03:04:00.001+08:00

I’m using one of the application that is an option to download and install. I’m trying out now to post this up and see if it stays the same or whatsoever.

Cheers~

UPDATE:

Voila~ I’m using it now and this is my post! This is fun! xD

By the way, this application is called Windows Live Writer Beta! Try it.

2010-09-12T00:30:00.003+08:00

I don't understand sometimes when people come chatting with me, they always involve "money". It involves my financial status which include my family background.

Sincerely speaking, I've always hated people always said something like "Wah, so rich!" Or, "Your dad sure sponsor one la!", Or "Don't act la!". You think everything can be solve with money is it?! Grow up la!

IF I am THAT RICH, I wouldn't be seeing you here in Malaysia for 3 years. Some even went to UK to study and where am I? I'm in MALAYSIA! I have difficulties myself which people don't understand. Why wouldn't you said something like that to those who bought a lot of stuff, without thinking of their own financial background?

I work, I earn my own money. I don't depend on other people. I went looking for job, I have to think of the expenses. I buy stuffs for breakfast, lunch or dinner, I have to think of how much is the food! Do you think I'm like some who spend their money without thinking of how hard my parents earn that money?

I did that all the time! To release my parents burden I have to think of other ways to reduce the expenses. Why don't you call those big tycoon boss as rich people rather than splatting you words at me saying me this and that?

I'm just trying to say that I don't want to burden my parents with money now by borrowing money to buy a transportation or something else here in KL. I would rather earn my own money to buy one!

Again, I am not acting being poor or anything! I'm just thinking on behalf of my family financial background. I just wanted to humble myself but still some still wanted to throw everything at me.

If I offended anyone here, you think for yourself here. I respect everyone but you who said me that way.

2010-09-06T00:52:00.002+08:00

Well, it's decided. I'm going back on 8th October. Wasn't a sudden plan though because I have been thinking quite a lot. Since my dad wanted me to go back, then I have no other choice.

I can imagine when I go back, "What would I do? Which church I'm going? Will I find any jobs in Miri?" The first thing is most probably stay at home until any of my friends call me out. Well, that is IF I have any friends. Do I?

A lot of questions in my mind. Booked MAS Airline because I love the architecture of KLIA. Blah~ Just kidding. It's just the service I love about it. Not saying I'm rich or something, but it's the cheap fare.

Have a doubt on getting myself an iPod Touch 4G. Still deciding on getting one or not. xD

2010-08-24T23:12:00.002+08:00

For the pass few weeks, I've been thinking whether I should go back to Miri or not. I still wanted to stay in KL and look for job. But, since graduated for 3 months I only got 4 calls. I guess that's a lot better than no one call me. HaHa!

It's been a dilemma case. I've been staying in Semenyih for too long.

Going back to Miri, there's definitely a car for me but no place to go. Unlike KL, no car but plenty of places to go.

Sigh, I still can't decide.

2010-08-20T16:49:00.002+08:00

All the years of studying, I'm not sure if it's enough for me to earn back that much money in a short period of time. I know it's impossible unless I really think of some other thing to earn back the money that my dad spent on me.

Graduated yes, but then looking for the job I wanted is hard. KL, maybe not the place for me to look for job even though there's public transportation provided. Honestly, I hate the KTM train service. Inefficient!

Delayed for most of the time, and that's what they are famous for. Even the air conditioning doesn't work some of the time. The worst experience I had is the trip to Klang. From Mid Valley train station to KL Central, the train came without air conditioning.

Imagine the train is full of people, and full of body contact with each other. Plus, no air conditioning. With only that one station stop, my shirts are wet! Even one of the American tourist was complaining and said "This is ridiculous!".

That is not a good impression towards Malaysia.

Anyway, this is one of the thing that Malaysia need to change. Efficiency, and it is important!

I have nothing to write about, heh~ One story to another. Love to do typing, and that is why some times I like to chat with friends. :)

2010-08-18T17:15:00.002+08:00

I........... don't know what to say! Heh~

Honestly, I don't know what to write about. Just, another random post which I have no idea of writing. xD

2010-08-05T13:49:00.004+08:00

It has been the third month after finishing my degree. After struggling I finally get to graduate. Grateful to Our Father In Heaven. I have never thought I could have finish my studies in KL.

Seriously, it is hard. Regretting for not getting second upper is pointless now. I'm grateful that I've been improving since year 1. My average increases bit by bit. I'm proud of that. :) God is in control.

Now, I'll be staying in KL for a while on looking for a job here. I'm still jobless but trying hard to find one. Been in the first interview, and that is something good where we learn to talk.

Learnt something from the interview:

1. Never say, "I don't know." This is a very very very bad answer. Advised by Adam.

2. Think before you answer, take your time.

3. Be confident with your answer even if you think it's a little boasting.

4. Always have the will to learn everything since study and work is 2 different thing. (My opinion though)

These few days, I've been thinking of going back to Miri. I do miss Miri sometimes, but not as much as before already. But, until I get my job maybe then I'll go back. If things doesn't go well, I will be back in Miri.

Summer holiday have been really boring besides on going to church. Still trying to get through my lazy attitude, and this morning I've at least done something. I've cleaned my toilet. xD

Nothing to be proud of, but I just knew that having to do something is fun and at least it's meaningful. :)

God bless everyone.

2010-08-01T21:11:00.002+08:00

Sometimes we all tend to think, Why does this happen to me? I have always ask this myself non-stop since I was a kid. Well, only some of you know what really happen. Thanks for listening.

There's a lot of other people having the worst situation than us. I always have this selfish thinking of myself because a lot of other people having a good family and all. But I never think about other people who have never known their loved ones. Who have never spend more time like I have.

Yes, we are selfish at a time when we're down and frustrated. Every family have their difficulties in life. All this happen with a reason and I am very sure of that. And of course we have to believe in why God gave us this path. Strength to deal with that matter.

Okay, I sounded weird now. I don't really know what I'm writing already. But what I'm trying to say is, things happen for a reason, and we should appreciate everything what is in front of us. Regretting will be useless because it already happened. We have to be strong, and appreciate.

Trips

2010-07-22T00:16:00.002+08:00

Last week, Adam and I went to Ipoh and came back to Semenyih on Thursday. Went to Klang and came back on Sunday. It was a happening week! It was fun.

We did go-kart at Ipoh, and we were drifting! It was fun drifting on the corners!! Hehe!! And we had lots of food. Non-stop eating! It is fun trying out new food.

Klang's bak kut teh is nice! Especially the dry bak kut teh. Never did like bak kut teh back at my hometown Miri. But Klang's bak kut teh is a lot better.

There's too much of things on the trip. All I can say is fun and exciting!! xD

Today is one of the happening day too. Me, Adam, Audri and his brother went to KLCC for a stroll. Looking up to the tall buildings, I told myself that we should appreciate having to be able to walk and see the scenery. :)

Convocation is coming. Don't really looking forward to it that much. But, it's a blessing that I'm able to finish my degree although with my lousy results. Sigh. But, praise the Lord that I've overcome! :)

God bless everyone!

2010-07-12T10:07:00.002+08:00

Which denomination are you? Catholic? Protestant? Which is better?

For what I think, is that every denomination is the same. We're all brother and sister in Christ. There's no such thing as I'm better than you or whatsoever.

There's only one Christianity in this world. If one would say his denomination is better, I'll just say "Your Christian, that's all. Don't make a fuss about it that your denomination is somewhat good".

If i offended anyone I'm sorry, but we're Christian. That is the only important thing.

2010-07-09T10:34:00.002+08:00

It's the second week of July. Never know time so quickly pass by. At first, it was the church camp and ended few days later. Then, news of friends beloved ones past away.

Next week, me and Adam will be going to Ipoh for few days trip. Then, on the weekend to Klang. After that? ConneXion Conference, followed by convocation. A happening month.

Already applied for job, but still there's no reply from any of them. I was thinking if I should go back to Miri to help my dad while waiting for the reply. But, I still don't feel like going back yet because I don't find any joy there.

If I go back, I'll slack even more. Not going to church and stuff. Enjoying the good stuff back home is not what I wanted. I want to learn, involving in engineering company. Speaking of engineering, I never thought of this before.

Now, I'm very excited to work in an engineering company. Before this, I've never thought of it. The first thing I'll think is business. People tend to say, studies and work is two different things. I'm not sure about big companies if they needed to use what we've learnt.

Having to work now, really make me feel uneasy. Scared of being scolded, scared can't do well, scared of everything. Maybe I just think too much on negative more than positive. Argh~

I'll see how everything goes. I just hope to stay in KL to work on engineering related stuff before I go back to Miri. Pray that everything goes well. :)

Death

2010-07-01T01:41:00.002+08:00

A week where I heard bad news all around. Something happened back home, and church members beloved ones past away.

Death, it's a part of life. A life where you won't know what may happen the next day. Your happy today, doesn't mean you'll be happy tomorrow. Life is where you meet every single challenges for us all, to be stronger.

Having your beloved ones leaving the world, is the saddest feeling in the world. Dealing with this matter needs time to heal, and also to be stronger.

Seeing friend's dad past away, a friend asked me, "If this happens to you, are you ready to deal with this?" That makes me think, am I okay with it? I'm not sure.

Death is a part of life that we have to face sooner or later.

Everything that happens, God is in control. Are you ready to face the sadness?

2010-06-30T00:41:00.002+08:00

End of June. Due to my laziness, I haven't started writing my resume. Thought of give it a go on Jobstreet websites but they need a resume.

Still, I'm not sure of how to write a resume. Was it suppose to be an introduction to myself? Bluffing of what you can actually do doesn't help i guess. Well, maybe that's what interview is for. Heh~

These few days have been helping the ConneXion House for the painting. Plenty of work need to be done. But it's good though. At least I'm doing something rather than staying in my room staring at facebook or other websites.

I get tired when I'm bored. That's when sleepiness comes. xD

Graduation day left few weeks to come. I'm not that excited with it. Because I'm still planning if I need to go back Miri or not. Sensing from how my dad spoke to me on the phone, he wanted me to go back and help him.

Some how, I don't feel like going back Miri. Because I see more things here in KL. Just that I'm not sure if I can handle the difficulties towards the job. For the moment there, I know I'm just scared of working. Not sure of how it will be.

How will the people there treating each other? How pressure that I will get? What target that I should get? What if I don't meet that target?

Plenty of stuff running through my mind.

I hope I can get the job here. It's not the time to go back Miri yet. I wanted to see more.

Painting day

2010-06-24T18:19:00.004+08:00

ConneXion Semenyih did some painting today. Me, as well as 8 awesome brothers and sister from the US came together for the help.

At first purchasing the colour for the exterior wasn't that nice. But, it turns out great. ConneXion Semenyih goes green for the coming semester! Yeah~

Anyway, the new layout theme for the blogger was great too. Had it done with my style. Gloomy grey. xD

You guys should try it. It looks a lot better this time. Before that, it wasn't my style. Now I really do want to blog more. More on boring stuff I guess.

So, wanted to intro for my friends blogspot. Click here! She's just graduated at well in Interior Design. Furthering her master studies still. For her blog, she's doing an extra work to earn some money. So, do stop by at her blog.

Wanted to redesign your house interior? Look for her! Or contact me. Enjoy!

CBC Church Camp

2010-06-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

Just came back to Semenyih again today in the evening. Went for a trip to Cameron Highland for the church camp. First time participating, and it was fun. :)

Dragged to become the group leader, which I don't have any experience in leading. I can't lead I would say. I'm not smart either. We did well I guess. 3rd position. First timer, okay?

Still, getting to know new people is hard for me to start a topic. I did try though. During the discussion for the group presentation, we're kind of like enjoying too I think. They were laughing with some funny expression and jokes I did.

Well, it was fun for me. But I'm not sure about the others. The only thing I know being a group leader is to take care of them all. 3 kids are under me, so I have to make sure everything is okay for them.

I hope they enjoy themselves though. Being a leader, wasn't my style. And I'm bad in leading. An experience for me, so maybe I can improve next time. I don't even know if I'll be joining anymore though.

Anyway, met new friends and learn a lot of things especially about God. :) Nothing is greater than God and His Son, Jesus Christ.

God bless everyone. :)

Summer break

2010-06-12T13:58:00.002+08:00

I just realized now that since the summer break started, I've spent only 2 weeks here. It's been like for a month already. I've never keep track on the time and the date.

Without knowing again, I've watched 2 Taiwanese drama series. Now, ongoing for the third. It was fun watching, laughter, sadness, etc.

This morning, I woke up and switching on the extension adapter and it turns out spoiled. Blah~

For now, I'm officially jobless. Still, I don't have the mindset of finding job now. Still waiting for my results, hoping for the best. As long as I don't fail, I'm fine with it. I know what result I would get, and worried that I can't find any jobs here in KL.

Worst come to worst I'll go back Miri, which I don't feel like doing so. I'll leave it to God, whether I'll be staying in KL or go back to Miri. Now, I'll spend my time playing first. Hoping that I can stay in KL to find a job. :)

God bless everyone.

BHP Petrol Station

2010-06-06T12:04:00.003+08:00

You know what? I take back my words again about the BHP Petrol Station.

Eric: The company told the workers not to open the door to anyone. They have to apologize as well.

Anonymous: Don't go around people blog posting the same comment!! Put your situation on the girl's shoe. How would you feel?

BHP Petrol Station should apologize, and to the worker, your too obedient! Can't you even think properly when the person already threw his IC at you?! Retards!!

My condolences for the girl's family.

2010-06-01T20:23:00.002+08:00

有些人，事情发生了时候才来找我。

可是，没有事情的时候你当我是 “Hi bye" 那种朋友。

Wake up call~

2010-05-31T10:17:00.002+08:00

This morning I dreamt about something. It's like a wake up call for me, and it's the first time ever.

I was in this place, more or less like a MPH bookstore, where there's a lot of people walking and reading all around.

I was with a friend (Adam), walking in that place also, looking around. So, as we were walking we heard a song was played. It's Michael W. Smith singing "The Stand".

The song started at the bridge, and everyone sang along. Not one, or two singing. It was everyone. After this song, the next song came in. It is a praise and worship song also. Everyone was dancing and jumping along praising God.

Me and Adam was laughing, and watching with joy as all the people was praising God. The first wake up call that really makes my day. I was smiling when I woke up.

What is it? A sign? Not sure, but it really touches my heart when the people jump with joy praising God. :)

Anyway, had fun with friends yesterday at the church and meeting old friend. Frisbee game was fun and very VERY tiring. Heh~

That's all for today, and God bless everyone. :)

End of study life

2010-05-29T17:41:00.002+08:00

Today it's the last paper. I'll have to say, I don't really feel anything. I don't feel happy nor sad.

At first I thought that I would jump for joy when I finish this last paper. But, no. Not one bit of happiness is in me. Hm...

终于考完试了。

心情没什么特别的开心。

有时候，陪伴了一个人不代表他会喜欢你。而是自己想太多。

自己知道没有机会了，是时候放下。

现在我希望，他可以开心的过。希望他可以找一个对他更好的人。

2010-05-28T01:55:00.002+08:00

我对自己说过，什么都不要想。

可是，我还是不能放下。

时间还过了真快，我还想认识你多一点。

可是，这是老天的安排。我无能为力。

我的朋友说的对，我还是"Ah Ngau"。

一天到晚不读好书，而拙了其他的事情。

现在，我自能说对不起。我没有勇气要对你说，我喜欢你。

可是，喜欢不代表爱。

一切都是自己害自己。

好烦哦。。。。。

"Kidnapped"

2010-05-26T01:28:00.002+08:00

Today, something happened. See the quotes? "Kidnapped". Yes, I'm being kidnapped by someone.

But, I'm at home all the time. Blah, what am I writing here.

Anyway, someone called my sister's boyfriend's mother (too long already, call her Aunty then), saying that I'm being kidnapped by someone.

The person who is calling, pretended as me. Here's the conversation (more or less same xD):

"Me": Aunty!! I've been kidnapped by someone!!! Please help me!! Help me pay for the ransom!!

Aunty: (Thinking of who is it, and assumed it was me) Why? Why are you being kidnapped? Aren't you suppose to be in uni??

"Me": I don't!! They just come and grab me and went inside the car!! They injured my hands and legs already!! Please!! Help me!!!

Kidnapper: So how?! You want to pay or not?! If you don't pay I will chop his hand and leg!! You better pay!!

Aunty: (Getting nervous and worried) How much do you want? I only have a little amount of money!

"Me": Aunty! Please!! Help me pay RM3,000 first! I will call me father to repay you back! Please!!

Aunty: (Worried more and gets her bank book out)

After that she went to her friends place asking for advise from her friends. Her friend told her, that it was a scam.

Soon after that, I received a call from my sister.

Me: (Looking at the phone, felt uneasy that something had happened)

Sis: Hello? Where are you now?

Me: At home lo. Why?

Sis: (Felt relieved) Someone called aunty saying you're kidnapped by someone!

Me: No le! I'm at home all day. And Kevin (my brother) is in uni since morning already.

Sis: Okok! So nothing happened already, you better call aunty say you're fine.

Me: Okok!

Then I called, telling her that I'm fine and nothing happened to me. Being worried, I called my brother just to make sure again. Everything is fine.

After that, I thought of it again. Why would a kidnapper asked for RM3,000 instead of RM300K? Kidnapping is a serious offence and you'll be jailed for it. First time being in this situation, it's really scary.

I've been worrying for the whole afternoon that something might happen to me or to my brother. Thanks to Kai Seng for the prayer. Appreciated it very much. If not I won't be so calm today.

Talking about today again, the paper is bad. Sad....

Can't do much with it already, I'll just focus on my last paper on Saturday. Hope I can pass? Hm...

Anyway, mixed feeling today of being worried, uncalm mind, with stressful thoughts of exams, and had fun in the ConneXion house where I'm being bullied. HaHa! I had fun too. HeHe!!

God bless everyone. :)

I am Ah Ngau~ =.=

2010-05-25T13:14:00.002+08:00

This is what my friend told me. I'm Ah Ngau. For what reason? For looking from far but not telling.

I was like what?! HaHa!! I laughed!

He said he was like that before. And now, he improved. Being brave.

Me? Still the same. What a sad case. And I will forget everything after the exam. Not much to care for anymore. :)

Third paper today. Hope I can do the questions. Quite worried about it. And I'm still being drifted off somewhere in my thought.

God help me~ T_T

My left eye twitches for a few days already. Felt something was not right, I think.

:)

2010-05-20T22:43:00.002+08:00

Okay~ What should I write this time? Hm...

Anyway, today was my second paper. I can't finish it on time. T_T Sad part is, the thing that memorize didn't come out in the paper. Some question that you're expecting to come out never come out!

Sad, and I really hope I can score this paper. Seems like the hope fell into the drain already. The third paper which is on next Tuesday would be the hardest among all the modules for this third year.

I'm scared of it. I scared I fail that paper because it is a very difficult module. Why do I even choose that module anyway? =.=

I'm going to rest for tonight and start another new module to study tomorrow. Not new, but just to revise and do past year questions. :)

Can't wait to finish the exam, but I will miss the friends in Nottingham soon. Argh~

Have a good rest tonight, and study more tomorrow. (I hope I do it, because honestly, I won't be doing it. Let's just say, I'm fed up with studying. xD)

Quiet cool night

2010-05-19T01:26:00.003+08:00

Came back from studying in a friend's house. A productive day I would say. :)

Walked back home, which is just few houses away. It was cool and cold night after the rain. I looked up to the sky, I see stars. Not many but enough for me to enjoy the beauty of the night.

It's like looking at something and yet it's very far away. The only thing you can do is just watch. Nothing more. How sad...

I thought back of myself again, yes my mind drifted off again. Thinking unnecessary things. I told myself, this is not the time to think about it.

Or it's just me avoiding and not getting rid of it? Sad...

Anyway, next paper is on Thursday at 5pm. Hope I can do well for this paper.

Praying for everyone for the exam. God bless.

2010-05-16T15:37:00.003+08:00

我只想对你说，我只能够看着你快乐。

我没有那么的勇敢要对你说，我爱你。

为了你，都值得的让你开心。

你笑，我也笑。可是，我知道我心里很难过。

你的幸福是惟一要紧的事。

我只能对自己说，放弃吧。。。。

How was it? Nice? Broken Chinese I guess. xD

2010-05-16T00:17:00.002+08:00

Ever since I'm around 10 to 12 years old, I have not been exposed to Christianity. As I went into secondary school, I know a little bit of it but not until the extend where I'll go to church every week.

No, I've only started to go to church when I'm in form 4 and form 5. A few of my friends are Christians and I've went to a lot of this Christian concert thingy, whatever it is. I still don't have that devotion in it.

Of course every family have their own problems. And I considered mine to be very serious? Because I've been in this "problem" since I was a little kid. Yeah, it was a bad experience. Lots of trouble. But I'm sure there's more people having their difficulties too. Pray for them.

Anyway, I'm doing good now just that I'm seeing lot of problems in Christians. Of course I'm in it also. I have my habit and bad temper too. Bad temper as in I'll scold or violently do something. xD That's me!

Since I've been in KL, I've changed a little from there. Able to joke around and play around not like before. I was a quiet person and never smile at all. :)

Being a Christian, talking is easy. Without action, your just talking nonsense telling everyone. I've seen a few Christians. Some don't even care of what problem your facing, even if that's your own relatives. This is what I'm facing till today.

Outside your saying you are Christian, but are you doing the rightful way of a Christian? Let's not talk about how human is not perfect. If you are one Christian, do what you're being preached of. Taking Jesus Christ as a role model.

Egoism happens too. Everyone have it. But not until the extend where you're leaving other brothers and sisters in Christ to one side and treating them like a stranger. So, what's the difference of you being a Christ who acts that way, than those atheist who really treat people nicely?

If I were to say this, those who don't believe Christianity, they will go to hell. This is according to bible. So, if your being preached to do this and not that but your doing that, what's the point if you repent? Or you never know what you did and you don't want to admit it? Would you go to hell too? I'm curious of this.

Why would an atheist go to hell, than those Christians treating each other badly? I don't know much about Christianity yet. I'm still learning. That is why I'm asking this. No offence or whatsoever. :)

Treat everyone fair enough even though they are stranger. If you Christians start treating other people differently, they will start to avoid you and not going to church frequently. Or worst, go to a new church. Or they would say this, "I don't want to go to church today or even in the near future because of how they treated me!".

And here, we've lost one brother or sister in Christ. Human error, big problem. Error occur, but they don't want to listen and that's the end. They would rather stayed at home than facing you in the church.

Practice what you're being preached.

Another thoughts came into my mind too, why do Christianity separated with Catholics, Methodist, Anglican, and etc? Isn't it all about Christianity? One true God? Jesus Son of God?

Why do they even separate it? What's the point? Christian is Christian, nothing more. Separating it would be like causing trouble if one denomination saying this denomination is preaching the wrong thing.

All these came up to my mind, and this really troubles me.

As I go further learning, I know it's only about Our Father in Heaven and His Son, Jesus Christ. Not us humans. I'm sure there will be guidance from Him as I'm learning more and more.

Patience is important, God is love. God is good.

God bless everyone! :)

Heart breaking incident

2010-05-12T01:35:00.003+08:00

I came across this website, which was quite a long news back.

It was heart breaking news that happened in Singapore.

Here's the link through google:

http://www.google.com/buzz/jahatself/C9fLijb3id7/if-not-for-the-title-bearing-slight-reference-to

Here's the original website (On the second post entry):

http://taxidiary.blogspot.com/

Appreciate what you have now.

Mother's Day

2010-05-09T14:36:00.002+08:00

It's Mother's Day.

What's the point of writing "Happy Mother's Day" on facebook anyway? Call back home and talk to your mom. That's the only thing you should do. xD

The old friends

2010-05-05T02:14:00.002+08:00

Chatting with old friends are fun. Lots of thing to talk about. Jokes and laughter.

Never had this fun of chatting for so long. Everyone separated after secondary school and only contact through facebook or MSN, or now Skype.

Downloaded Skype just to chat with an old friend of mine. Having not to login into Skype for 3 years plus, surprisingly it still works. HaHa!

She's a fun person to chat with. Anything goes. We're all good friends, and that's where friends is all about. :)

:)

2010-05-04T22:51:00.002+08:00

退了一步，让他们开心。。 :)

Awesome God and The Stand

2010-05-04T13:59:00.003+08:00

Great song from Hillsong and Michael W. Smith. Thanks to Adam for sharing. :) Love the song a lot!

Morning prayer

2010-05-04T11:14:00.002+08:00

Had read a few chapters in Psalm. Somehow, I really like Psalm. Really calms myself down.

Thanks Tim! If not I won't be doing this. :)

Looking forward to progress more on my studies.

God bless everyone. :)

Friendship

2010-05-03T13:36:00.002+08:00

In the reality world, everyone are not perfect. But we take Jesus as a role model. That is where we learn something.

People do mistakes.

Forgive and forget.

An apology to you too as I don't deserve of judging any of you.

But it's humans nature, we only can change ourselves not to do it. Keeping this in my mind.

Sorry again. :)

Psalm 146: 3 - 6

2010-05-02T07:06:00.003+08:00

Thanks Kenin for the verse. :D

Do not put your trust in princes,

in mortal men, who cannot save,

When their spirit departs, they return to the ground,

on that very day their plans come to nothing.

Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob,

whose hope is in the Lord is God,

the Maker of heaven and earth,

the sea, and everything in them,

the Lord, who remains faithful forever.

2010-05-02T00:13:00.002+08:00

After expressing something out it is good. Wanted to thank a friend for spending the time listening to me.

With effect from now, facebook is deactivated. Concentrate on my studies. I'm sure something good will happen.

Things happened then let it be. I can't do anything about it. When that's how I'm being treated, that's how I'm going to avoid.

No one to trust but a friend who understands.

God bless everyone. :)

Study week

2010-04-28T15:42:00.002+08:00

Studying is always my weakness. However, I tend to learn more when there is discussion among friends. This is where I can learn more. When I ask questions, I learn from there.

Just that I know myself, I don't talk and always have been quiet. Scared to ask. But I've tried my best. Assignments done with understanding? Yes, I understand more when friends explains to me. I learn more things from friends rather than listening to lecturers.

One part of me still don't change. I'm too depended on my friends. If I'm alone, I'll studying blindly. Oh yes, I learn a bit but doesn't help much. Everyone have their weaknesses. Realizing now is too late because it doesn't change anything.

If I'm behaving this way, what will happen if I come out to the community? Sad eh? Haha... Anyway, today felt much better than the previous few days. But I still don't have the appetite to eat. Don't know why.

Fed up with the food. Last night ate one pear and chocolate milk. That's all. If I'm thinking of going to Connaught, I don't think I'll eat much. If that's the case I might as well don't go. :)

Well, see if everything goes okay and IF I'm hungry, I'll go. Probably won't i guess.

God bless everyone. Pray for each and everyone of you. Good luck to everyone on the coming exam. Let's make it the last effort and do well. (Talking to myself actually xD)

Mixed feeling

2010-04-23T00:43:00.001+08:00

Somehow, I have a mixed feeling now. End of year three. Sad, happy, and etc.

Sigh.... maybe that's why I'm restless... =.=

Restless

2010-04-20T20:37:00.002+08:00

Being very restless today. I don't know why.

Restless....

Very restless........

>.<

Weekend with family

2010-04-18T15:34:00.002+08:00

My dad came last Friday night together with my brother. My brother will be studying in Nottingham too, so my dad have to bring him here and at the same time have a walk around KL and Semenyih.

Had a great time with my dad. Talk about a lot of stuffs. Business, family, and more. My mom didn't come though, cause she said it's just a few days so she would come other time.

Had dinner with my dad, my sis, my sis's bf, my brother and my brother's gf. Wah~ All couple, and I'm the only single in the family now. How sad... Haha~ Jk! Nothing to be sad of. Cause I don't need any love as I have one from God. :)

If I'm given a partner yes, I will appreciate. If not I'll spend my life with God. :D

Nothing wrong with that right? When the time comes, it will come. Don't need to be so desperate for a partner. Just, be normal. :)

I really miss my home and my family now. Spending one day wasn't enough for me. My dad and I had a conversation yesterday and he told me to go back Miri to help. Somehow, I was thinking he really needs my help.

I don't think I can help much due to my lack of socializing with people. I don't talk much with the new person that I met. Or, I don't even talk at all. Even in the church, I only mingle around my uni friends. Sad huh?

Anyway, people learn everyday. At least I'm able to talk more than last time. I'm more to a quiet type of person. That is why I'm still single~ Wahaha!

Last assignment to go for the coming due on Thursday. Hope I can do it my own (I suspect I won't cause I don't know a thing about that module). But better than never try at all.

Praying for my dad on a safe journey back Miri. God bless him and everyone. ^-^

Hectic week

2010-04-16T02:50:00.002+08:00

I'm still awake now, doing my assignment that is due today at 4.30pm. I have not rested since I came back to my room. I've only closed my eye for 5 minutes.

Mentioning this again doesn't change anything. I'm not fit for engineering. But it's my final year and I've to do my best. Counting on friends is not what I intend to do, but it seems that I've lost interest in study for years already.

Tired brain, can't think of anything to write on the assignments. Oh~ what could possibly go wrong again if I've faced this kind of difficulties.

Tired.... of... everything......

2010-04-13T01:42:00.002+08:00

Due date for final year project is this Thursday! Draft have been sent to my supervisor, but hopefully nothing much changes that I have to do.

Spent whole night doing it and slept at 3am. And, the assignment is a pain! I want to thank my friends that helped me. Adam, Nelson, Zi Jian and Eric.

Seeing my supervisor tomorrow for the FYP. Hope can finish everything by Wednesday.

I pray that God bless each and everyone of us, and guide us through the hectic week.

God bless everyone. :)

2010-04-11T14:00:00.002+08:00

真的很烦啊!

Assignments and final year project

2010-04-10T01:56:00.002+08:00

Having to know that studying have taken 23 years and I was still not able to study well. That is quite an embarrassing thing to know. Maybe I'm don't have the interest in studying already.

Needed help from friends, which is something that I don't want to do. Yes, I wanted to try everything myself but that's my limit. I can't do further. I do know of myself that I'm tired of studying. And, I know not only me would be thinking of this.

Anyway, it was fun for the water war on the ConneXion Night. I don't exactly know what we are doing when the announcement was made on Wednesday Bible study night. The only thing that I know is, it involves water.

I don't really have the mood just now actually, because of FYP and assignments. But, enjoying for tonight won't do harm. The only thing is, I'll get less sleep. I might not sleep for the few days before the due date of the assignments and FYP next week.

Expecting it from the start already so, no more complains. :)

Nothing much to add, and I have to continue my work. Good luck to everyone for the hectic week ahead. God bless~

2010-04-07T16:22:00.000+08:00

Can't do my assignment. Don't understand at all. Get zero better. Sad...

BLah~

2010-04-07T00:14:00.001+08:00

Blueh~~

2010-04-03T22:10:00.003+08:00

It has been a stressful semester. Somehow, I don't know if I can pass some of the modules. I'm quite worried for my result now. Even in the presentation, I gave my best but then it's not how your presenting it to your lecturer. Is the amount of work that you have done.

I've been blast with questions regarding my work for final year project by the assessor, but it wasn't enough for them. All I can do is just give up and let them comment. Say more does not do good for me.

Yes, I don't have enough work so far. Yes, I didn't get any accurate results. All these are there for a reason, but we can't just tell it to them without any proof.

Yes, blamed myself for not doing enough work. Work has to be done but little troublesome matters at the back drags everything down.

If I protest, nothing will be done. Even if I ask for their help, they will just ignore us students. Their mood swings every time, and we students are the victim.

If it was easy, I've done all my work from the starting of second semester. Some do not know of the matter that we are facing. Matters like the technician, the equipment, and limitation.

Why do I even choose this title in the first place? And now I don't even know how to do my assignments after studying the notes. What worst may come?

I have the feeling, I will fail. Shame to myself for being stupid in studying. I want to give up. Sigh.....

2010-03-30T23:49:00.003+08:00

I've been lazy to update my blog because of the works that I have now. Although, some of the time I do slack. But hey, at least I'm doing my work now.

Having to do the final year project presentation this week, it really does stress me out. I'm scared of what would the answer be asked, and will I do well for 15 minutes?

I rehearse a lot of time in the afternoon and a few times again at night. I presented around 14 minutes. This is quite dangerous as I'm worried of how I would explain. I'm nervous as it is my final year project.

Talking about how I did if of course I know what I did, but just that I don't do much research? But I do now, get a lot of informations already. For now, I'm just hoping I don't present overtime.

After presentation, I'm still worried because of the assignments. Honestly, I don't know what is happening in control and heat transfer classes. With much of my attention during the class, I am listening attentively.

I do understand some. But hardly to understand everything. This doesn't help in my assignments and yes, I need help. But, I felt uneasy of asking friends for help. As I've said, I don't know what is happening in the class and would they even help?

Anyway, important thing now is the presentation. Hope everything goes well.

God bless everyone. :)

John 16:33

2010-03-25T13:57:00.003+08:00

"I have told you these things,

so that in me you may have peace.

In this world you will have trouble.

But take heart!

I have overcome the world"

As the title, taken from John 16:33

Expecting more to come, but God is good even though bad things happens to you.

God loves you always and God bless you all.

2010-03-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

Having not working hard enough is really regretful. With lousy results, I felt guilty for my parents. Saying regret now doesn't change anything. Deactivated my facebook out of the blue.

Hopefully that helps? Seriously, I get distracted, I mean A LOT. Would I even find any job with my current results? Been counting the marks and expected that I can't even get second upper.

I'm sure you all are laughing, but I'm fine with it because I knew how I did and slacked a lot. Now even getting 85% (assuming only) for my final year project, I still can't get second upper. How sad was that? Sigh....

Now, the point of this blog? No point at all. Just letting you all laugh at me. =.=

Friends come and go?

2010-03-17T15:24:00.002+08:00

Friends come and go if your realize it. There is always new friends coming along if your willing to accept them into your life. What about old friends?

Mindset changes people on how they wanted to live, or socialize. A little argument changes the relationship and it won't go back as it was before. What kind of friends do you want? Kind? Helpful? Funny?

As we get older, our ways of thinking changes. Do you still care for them as much as you have when you were that close to them before? Some do, but some don't appreciate of what you've said and done.

Is there any such word is "best friend" to you? For now, there's none for me. Do I care for some of them? Trying NOT to.

Updates

2010-03-13T18:25:00.002+08:00

Actually, there's nothing to update for now. We're busy on FYP, and trying to read through the literature review. I'm not sure if it's enough but at least I'll get a few review to standby for my report.

Got results for my FYP already, and hoping it shows differences in the testings. Will be conducting a test next week and hoping it's the result that I wanted.

About myself? Nothing much lately and still slacking too much. Next week onwards, I wanted to study and try to do the assignments which is due soon. I hope I can do it. :)

God bless everyone. God is good all the time, and all the time God is good. ^.^

2010-03-08T00:58:00.002+08:00

Another random post again. I can't find myself a topic to start with. It's another new week ahead and I'm falling far behind for my final year project. I only manage to get a few data last week but it was better than nothing.

I can't really control myself from using the computers for facebooking. This is rather a serious matter for me because I tend to overdo something and forgotten what is important.

I might as well deactivate my facebook until I done my work. Saying is easy, but there's no discipline that can guide me through. It's my final semester and I should have do more studies than playing. Playing as in chill too much.

Sigh........

Random Update

2010-03-06T01:48:00.006+08:00

Did my FYP again, and I got a little results. Doesn't show any differences in the sample but hoping the weeks to come I can get some different readings.

Had been thinking just now while play a little games on facebook. Trying to rest my mind from the stress. Sometimes I'm wondering, why do I even envy my friends who had a lot of stuff. PSP, high-end computers and so on?

Does even high tech stuff matters? I don't know about myself, but there's a lot of things that I wanted. Why don't I get one? No, I can't because I have to save money for myself. For emergency use. All the while I'm thinking of reducing my dad's burden.

Few of my friends are enjoying, with their "stuffs" while I'm just looking. Some even talk about having this and that and their father provide it for them. I envy them. And I know, I'm not suppose to envy anyone. That wasn't how God teach in the bible. Everything comes with the hard work that you've put into. But this is just temporary thoughts that I had. Nothing serious. Trying to revert back to of what I've should think. :)

I had another thoughts just now which relates to Christianity. Last 2 weeks ago, Uncle Rodney talks about how Christians should have concerns towards the people. There was this news on a little girl tried to save her littler brother who was still in the house that caught fire, and in the end both died in the flame.

I was thinking, what will happen to my family if my relatives on my mother side have the hearts of the little girl, trying to save the brother's life? Will my mom get better or will it be the same?

Uncle Rodney asked, how many of the Christian would even care or concern about each other? For me, none of "them" cared and I assumed that they don't really bothered about it. And yes, they might not able to help but does visiting each other hurts? Or even a call waste their time?

No moral support at all and all they do is to avoid. Those to read my blog, I wanted to ask, is this how Christian should act?

I listened to a conversation of 2 of my friends talking about atheist who will remember what a Christian do or did when the things that the Christian do is indeed for the atheist perspective view, is wrong and ask "Can the Christians do this?"

Sometimes I questioned myself too, is this how Christian cares or concerns by avoiding? So, being quiet is how they give moral support?

I do care for people by advising or tried to give moral support by encourage them if they have any kinds of problem. But now, I'm asking myself, should I even help? God said, love your neighbours and your enemies. Hm wait, I shouldn't question this to God because He is good all the time and I should question it to the fellow brothers and sisters in Christ.

Just a thought that I wanted to share. If this does offend anyone let me know. :)

God bless you all.

Finally.....

2010-03-02T22:52:00.003+08:00

I'm starting something for my FYP. But, still doing trial and error. Having carbide steel tool to mill stainless steel block is a headache because of it's strength and hardness. Can't even increase the depth of cut to 0.2mm, which is very very small already. Smoke came out, and its red hot temperature. I saw the tool turned red when the milling tool is going through the surface. That is dangerous that the tool might break half way of milling~

Eh? Why am I writing this? Never mind~ :D I'm happily explain here because I doing something today for my FYP. ^-^

I'm quite happy, at the same time stress. All the time of the milling, the friction producing screeching sound. This is what I'm scared of because the workshop technician might scold me or something.

But it went well and I've collected the samples. Colour changes for the chip and can be shown in the presentation.

Somehow I don't think I can get good results for my FYP. But, anyway I'll just leave it to God. I'll do my best and do what I can. Stressful and final year. :)

Weekend go jalan-jalan with the ConneXion gang. Photo shooting ~ Yeah!

*updates: DSLR is no longer with me and no photo shooting already. Sad....*

4 more weeks T_T

2010-03-01T00:19:00.002+08:00

Super worried and stress now. Sometimes I even wonder, do I even have faith in God? Why do I felt so stress when every time everything doesn't go how it suppose to be? Am I questioning God's plan?

I really do sometimes, got carried away with what I think and what I do. Last week's bible study had me thinking about myself. Do I really have enough faith in God? If so, why do I worry so much?

A friend told me to start the report first while waiting for my workpiece to arrive. Yes, I'm trying to but somehow when I think about the workpiece I started to stress and not doing or reading everything over the literature review.

Why do we worried so much? No, I should ask myself that question.

Sigh......................

I have to believe in God's plan and whatever the plan is, it's for my own good. Have to be optimistic and move on whatever things that I need to do now.

May God show me the way and hoping everything goes well.

FYP?

2010-02-24T23:17:00.000+08:00

Very worried now....... T_T

Final Semester

2010-02-22T19:41:00.003+08:00

It'll be my final semester in Nottingham. It's a blessing that I'm able to finish these few years staying in KL.

My result came out, as expected that I'm getting that result with last minute preparation for final exam. I am able to pass thanks to God, as He is the way of guiding me through.

Having self discipline is important too. It's not how you did well or not, it is how you discipline yourself on getting your mind to study. I admit, with that result I didn't put more efforts on it. If I prepared earlier, it wouldn't be so stressful for studying last minute.

Of course, we ourselves have to know where is the limit end. We don't blame on other people, but ourselves. Ask yourself, how did you study? How did you spend your time? How long did you spend to prepare?

Time is crucial, and we shouldn't spend too much time on unnecessary things. I admit, again I spent too much time on facebook. Addiction is the main culprit, and that is where yourself have to know when to play, and when to be serious.

Anyway, as aiming for second upper class wasn't easy for me i guess. I can, actually if I spend more time. Okay, don't want to mention the IF again as it's the past. In fact, we shouldn't mention it earlier.

Discipline, and study smart. Hope I can get more marks for my FYP to pull up my average marks. Second semester wasn't easy for me too. Maybe my result is standard on getting average. Hm... Even mention it in front of my friends felt embarrassing as most of them get 60 and 70+ above. That is where people would think, "Aiyer, so lousy one this person's result." Or I just think too much? Oh well~

Thank God that I've pass with a little improvement. That's okay for me. Trying to change and trying to study. Thank God all the way. ^.^

God bless everyone. May you all have a blessing week ahead of you.

Back in Semenyih

2010-02-20T20:28:00.002+08:00

Came back to Semenyih last night reaching TTS 4 around 1.10am. It was tiring to be in a flight late at night.

I'm back with more stresses coming soon with FYP due not for long. I'm quite worried for now because I'm not sure what would happen during the experiment. I am just hoping everything goes well.

While resting just now, I kept thinking of my FYP and it is my final year I don't want to screw things up.

It's the 7th day of Chinese New Year. Happen to be back early made me miss my home again. Should have book the flight for Sunday night.

Love my family and praying that everything is well. ^.^ God bless everyone.

3rd day of CNY

2010-02-17T00:23:00.002+08:00

Assuming it's the 3rd day for now since it's over 12am already. :)

I've come back without meeting any of my friends except for my teacher, Robert, Eddy, Adrian and his sister.

It's true that coming back Miri doesn't shows any meaning for me already other than seeing my family after a long while at KL.

Yes, it's been a lonely week without seeing or meeting my friends. Lonely I would say it's just this messy feeling and I don't see it to be necessary.

Anyway, my sister would be back from KL tomorrow. Will just have our own entertainment then. Don't go back KL with regret as I've enjoyed my time at home already. Family first I suppose? :)

Wishing everyone a great week for Chinese New Year and God bless you all. :)

Happy Chinese New Year

2010-02-14T00:54:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone. It has been another year, and we're celebrating. Half year of hectic uni life, at last I'm back here in Miri to witness the fireworks by the neighbours.

Had tried taking photos of the fireworks but it was hard. I got a few nice shot but still doesn't look nice. Without tripod it is hard. HaHa! But I enjoy it all the while.

Miri has been the best home ever.

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone and may you all have a blessed week ahead! God bless. :)

The day before Chinese New Year

2010-02-08T12:48:00.002+08:00

I'm back home in Miri for the third day already. A lot have changed. First thing was, my dad. Grew a lot of white hair already. That really broken my heart.

He struggle a lot, with his business. It's hard to get any payment from the customer but I went to his office today and somehow, it's a good news. A few customer paid and my dad was happy. :)

Other the other hand, my mom is okay too but still breaks my heart. They are getting older. I tried to help everything at home now for the cleaning as Chinese New Year is coming very soon.

I wanted to thank God for everything that went well. Without God I have nothing. I've mentioned this quite a lot, but it's true.

God's grace is awesome. Blessed be Your name Lord!

There's some other thing that happened too. It's some of my dad's friends. All I can say, it was shocking and sad. I prayed that God bless them.

I've been smiling for the whole morning and hoping more. :)

God bless everyone! ^.^

3 more hours

2010-02-06T05:37:00.001+08:00

It's 3 more hours before my flight back to Miri. Hopefully everything goes well. :)

3 more days

2010-02-03T15:07:00.002+08:00

3 more days and I'm going back to Miri. It's been quite a while and stressful for previous semesters, but I enjoyed it. Going to church, outings, frisbees, bible study.

Anyway, hoping that my parts will reach after the Chinese New Year because I'm worried about my FYP now. It has been 2 weeks that I didn't touch anything for my FYP.

Oh well, I'll just pray that everything goes well. Hopefully I can finish my work early and get ready for presentation which is very most important of my university life.

All the best to everyone. May God bless you all. :)

Lonely....

2010-01-31T00:39:00.002+08:00

Uh, don't mind the title. I just don't know what I should put since most of the time I would put "Random Post" or something else.

And yes, I'm home alone now. 1 of my house mate went back home, the other one went somewhere, and my landlord went out since this afternoon with the gate still widely open. =.=

I'm spending my whole day at home doing nothing. Why is that? I should be doing my fyp or revision. FYP, I'm still waiting for my workpiece. Revision, I don't feel like studying since it's near Chinese New Year.

Anyway, a friend spoke to me and we argued. About being rich. He said I'm rich, and I am not comfortable with people calling me that way. If I am that RICH, I won't be worrying about what I eat, what I buy, and what I do.

Sigh, sometimes people around me called me that way and I kept quiet because..... Haih, forget it.

Let's just say money is nothing without God. Without God there's no happiness and we are nothing. Everything that we have and achieved, is from God's grace. Nothing more.

Stress.....

2010-01-28T18:52:00.004+08:00

... = Force/Area. Yea right. That's what people did when you written "Stress" on your facebook. And no it's not about that, but more to emotionally stress.

I came across a module today which I'm not good at it. Control and Instrumentation. This semester would be busier than ever. Assignments worth 20% and 30%. How can I possibly live through this?

I'm being quiet this morning in the class when we're asked to have a group discussion and it's worth 10%. I was like =.= okay, this is bad. Being quiet is not because I don't want to say or do anything. I'm being stressed out because of that module.

It was an advance of DTC, which talks about controls and stuff.

I'm worried. I didn't manage to recall everything that I've studied and while trying to think and read on how to do that question, I felt guilty myself.

Felt guilty, is because my friends are solving the questions and I was being quiet the whole time. Haih.

After the class, I've been thinking and thinking of this semester. Can I even pass through the exams?

I'm starting to get worried.

Praying for God's help and wisdom for He is good all the time. Praying for calm heart and mentality for me to go through this final semester. God bless everyone.

Random Post

2010-01-27T01:33:00.002+08:00

First sem started hard. Hard, which I meant by the modules. Somehow it looks harder than the previous semester. I don't know if I can even handle it, and with my fyp due soon I don't know how much time left I need.

2 more weeks and it's Chinese New Year. While I'm in my room I can't feel the CNY mood. Maybe next week?

Anyway, I don't have anymore things to say. Pray God for my result. >.<

God bless everyone. ^-^

Semester 1 ended

2010-01-21T23:44:00.002+08:00

Finally, my exam is over. Should I be happy with it? Not sure because I don't expect I'll be doing well. Didn't expect it to over now and I have at least another few months to go.

What would I do after i graduate? I don't know what result I would get, but hopefully my final year project can help pull up my average.

A friend asked me to follow them to Genting. I would like to but I don't feel like playing at the theme park. I'll just walk around and enjoy the scenery, although mist is everywhere. HaHa! I'll just enjoy the temperature there.

Anyway, since I'm not going I might just stay in my room, again, for another 2 weeks. And then, I'll be back home! Yeah~ Chinese New Year is coming and it's always the feeling that I like.

Going back to see my parents, and did I mention I missed them very much? :D I miss my hometown too and I want to eat as much as I can when I go back, and I don't care about myself being fat. XD

Well, I'm just filling up my time here blogging and continue my One Piece anime later. Wahaha! That is where the boringness came and we shouldn't complain on having a lot of work to do.

Because you'll have plenty of time, IF you stop facebooking all the time. :p I do that most of the time though. But I complained too!! Hehehehehehe!!

But I really want to thank God for everything that I went through all this stresses from studying for exam. :)

Looking forward to next weeks bible study. Yeah!

God Bless. ^-^

Final exam week

2010-01-17T15:39:00.004+08:00

It's been a frustrating day yesterday (Saturday) because of my first paper. Somehow I'm expecting the question would be the same as the past year papers. But it's not. :(

Study for days on that module, and seems to me it wasn't enough. Can't blame anyone, and not even the lecturer. I blamed myself. I did 4 questions, without completing it and judging from course mates answer I knew I screwed up this time.

Today at church, a church mates named Shan Berg told me "Leave it to God". This word actually relieves me and being optimistic enough I might pass this paper. God is good and I have a friend that comforts me. I'm asking to myself, a word from God maybe? I smiled. I'm happy with it. Thank you Lord.

For now, leave it to God and hoping that I'll pass. All the best to my fellow course mates for their exam. (Those who read my blog) :p

P/S: On the previous post sensing something was wrong, I think too much and shouldn't be. I'm sure everything is fine. :)

Sensing something is wrong

2010-01-16T12:47:00.003+08:00

*edited....

Anyway, nothing was wrong on what i did mention on this post. Everything went well with God with us all the time. :)

Dear Lord, I prayed that everything goes on smoothly. I just had to seek you every time when I'm troubled mentally. Seeking you is always the first Lord. I prayed for my fellow course mate that you give them the wisdom and bless them. For this I prayed in Jesus Christ name. Amen.

P/S: Trying to pray a proper way though. I'm working on it. :)

Sad case in Sarawak

2010-01-12T14:51:00.003+08:00

I happened to know that one of the church in Miri was being thrown by bricks, shattering the windows. It's one of my friends church.

I never thought of this would happen in Miri, which was the first case in Sarawak. The ministers in Sarawak gave their thoughts of Sarawak and Sabah people would not fall onto this ridiculous matter.

They are wrong. There happen to be irresponsible youth, which is violent enough to cause trouble not only in Miri but everywhere in Malaysia.

But what can we do? Prayer! That's important because we believe in God. We have faith in Him.

I came across the video above from BLOGPASTOR websites. Have a look.

It was well said by Rev. Ong.

Sunday Service

2010-01-10T15:22:00.002+08:00

I finally understand something today at the church. Church is like our home, where everything is there. Not a normal one, but it's a family among the brothers and sisters in Christ.

A friend cried because of the incident that happened onto the churches that were burned by a group of people which angers them of using the word "Allah" in our Christian bible context.

It wasn't just the only friend of mine that cried, there's more that cried. To describe this feeling, it's like having your lovely home being flamed and burned down with nothing more or less.

I understand that feeling now. Although I don't know much about it, but that's the true feeling of being in a church, your home, our home, our Lord Father's home.

Praying for nothing more that may happen.

Worst day in Malaysia History

2010-01-08T22:49:00.003+08:00

Churches being are being flamed because of the usage of "Allah" in the bible context. This is not the Malaysia of being called, "1Malaysia". A disgraced act from the youth of trying to set fire onto the church.

What did we ever do wrong to them? Are we being treated fairly? Violence has been a way for some immoral people who did not think throughly of what is truly right and what is truly wrong.

We are in a modern century and there is still closed minded citizens who are being selfish and in a rightful way of saying, RESPECTFUL towards the other religion.

Where is justice? A so called "peaceful" country ended up with politician brainwashing the peoples mind with distorted meaning of a word.

The sadness. I'm praying for Malaysia. Hoping nothing more may happen. By faith we stand firmly as we will not give up as Christian!

*Edit: Pray for the youth too as they do not know anything. I think.*

Mat 5:44 - But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you.

Random Post

2010-01-07T12:48:00.002+08:00

Sorry for no updating, as because I don't feel like doing so because it might take a lot of my time from studying. Had a chat with friend, somehow I felt happier here in KL rather than my hometown.

It's like hometown for me is just to go back and accompany my family. Thinking about Chinese New Year which is coming soon next month, I'm more lonely than ever besides being with my family.

But I know, I will never always lonely as God is always with me. :)

God is good all the time! Good luck for Nott's student for the exams! :)

Unforgetable memory continue...

2009-12-16T14:14:00.009+08:00

Yes, continuing from my previous post. This time it's on Friday at ConneXion House in Semenyih. We've planned to give a surprise for Trent on the video that we've made for him. :)

Christmas Tree in ConneXion House

I went early for that afternoon trying to help to prepare for the night. I didn't really help much though, but Kai Seng gave me a tasks on making a CD cover for Trent. Sadly, i didn't take the picture of the CD but i did mention it on previous post.

Taken by Audri

Trent wasn't at home that afternoon, which I heard he went to Midvalley with Nelson. We have the chance to finalizing everything before he comes back. We had Nelson with him and we would know when he'll be back. Chiaw Min went fetching both of them at Kajang train station. Audri was with her too, so we had extra people to inform us before they come back.

Sen Loong and his camera

I was with Legend on checking the video and giving opinion on everything he did. I had fun watching the videos and some were hilarious. HaHa! I finished the cover before Trent came back. Legend however, still editing the videos. So, we went into the other room to continue the work.

Trent playing guitar

I went out early as Legend finishes the editing. Most of them were preparing the food and drinks. I tried to help out, and eventually I was standing there and walk around. Sorry~ >.<>

Trent before watching the video :p

So, it's 8pm and we started our night after everyone reaches. We all had our dinner first, while enjoying the food, we all chit-chat among ourselves. Once everyone finished their dinner, we started our video. We told Trent that we'll be watching Ninja, a new movie which came out few week ago but what we actually did is showing the "Thank you" video first.

Emotional, and touching video =)

Some of us watched the video, and some were watching Trent. It was an emotional video, even myself cried. T_T But, that was nothing because it's the memory we're talking about. Trent too dropped his tears, but not sure about others. It was embarrassing for me to be crying. OMG!

Watching "Thank you" video

Audri's turn on the "Thank you" video

After the video, Nelson presents the CD to Trent. Everyone hugged Trent for the last time.

Nelson and Trent

Kai Seng and Trent

Sen Loong and Trent

Drake and Trent

Zi Jian and Trent

Maurice and Trent

Osama and Trent

Sarah and Trent

Strong Isaac and Trent

Hannah and Trent

Tung and Trent

Ann and Trent

Chiaw Min and Trent

After all the hugs, each of us took a picture with Trent. Everyone poses and it was fun. :)

The iTouch gang

Trent posing as Adam as he went early for Christmas practice

Kai Seng and Trent (What's with the bag? HaHa!)

Attention!!

Me and Trent

Ann, Trent and Tung

Shen emo-ing :p

We had our group photo before Sarah and Hannah went back. We had a lot of fun time together.

Serious group photo

Will be updating again. Looking towards for tonight's bible study as Trent will be back for gift exchange. It'll be his final farewell gathering.

Unforgetable memory

2009-12-14T16:25:00.009+08:00

It's been fun for the past few weeks. Having Trent as our bible study teacher for every Wednesday was fun. All in all, I learnt a lot from him. Getting to know God, frisbee, and story back in Mississippi, in the US. :p

Hands in for Group cheer!

Frisbee was fun actually, running hard to catch the disk. I haven been so active for quite some time for sports. The only sports I play is badminton. After frisbee, I got body ache. Muscle cramp and tired. But it was all fun. Muscle pain is where you stretch your muscle and it can built muscles. :D

Line up for the first match

Before the actually competition, we had our practice. Every Sunday at the uni's sport complex. Being called a Mashimaro (rabbit) was frustrating because I can't sprint like a rabbit. Haha! Just kidding.

Trent lecturing us, for not doing well :p

I had my badminton shoes for the competition. I thought it would be sunny before the competition. In the end, the field was soak with water and it's muddy. I can't run well because it was slippery. Blame myself for not buying outdoor shoe. Badminton shoe was meant for indoors. Not outdoor! The shoe spoiled now, and somehow it's worth it.

Trent's frustrating look? :p

First match was horrible, because our team are fighting against the best frisbee team. They had their strategy, and we're all clogged together not sure where to run, not sure what's the best way. We didn't really train much though.

Stretching before the game

Most of the goal were by Nelson, Trent and Audri. And also Drake. Some weren't running well as mentioned by Trent, they're looking on the ground and not the disk. HaHa! Actually, since it's muddy it would be slippery. But i guess, playing frisbess is to get all wet and muddy. Doing layout on the muddy field looks fun, for those who likes doing it.

Audri with his sprain ankle

We won the second match though, and the final match. I sprint more for the final match because I borrowed Audri's shoe. There's more grip on the ground and I tried my best to get to the goal. I goal once, and it's very tiring because of my bad stamina. During the match, something happened. Ann's iphone got stolen. Some of us were little bit down and tried to search for her phone. Maxis can't help, and it's just like that. Poof~ Gone. The third match was bad. Some got scolded, shouted at. But it was nothing because we know the intense feeling for us to win. We're fine with it. And at least everyone had fun.

ConneXion Semenyih!

I had fun, we had fun. We got 7th place, and it wasn't too bad for me because we only had like 2 real practice on the field.

Trent smiling :)

It's great having Trent with us here in ConneXion Semenyih. Honestly, it was the most enjoyable year for me as I'm in the final year now. I remembered the encouragement gave by Trent, "Run rabbit run!!" HaHa! It was hilarious.

The above picture was the CD cover we did for Trent! By Me! Yay~ :D

I tried taking photos, creating a memory for ConneXion gang using Nikon D60, which was borrowed from my sister. I learnt to take pictures, I learnt photography from Sen Loong. It was fun too.

Kai Seng emo-ing.. :p JK!

We had dinner after the game, but Trent wasn't with us because he followed the other car. Had a full dinner and we went back home to ConneXion house first.

After dinner

We did a video for Trent, which we kept it secret from him. Because we wanted to show him our appreciation that he teaches us in bible study and had a great fun together!!

Audri singing "Sentuh Hatiku" as one of the background song in the video. :)

Click the link below to watch the video that we did for Trent. :)

Part 1

Part 2

Goofball song

Part 1 and part 2 is the Thank you video from each and everyone of the ConneXion house members. The Goofball song was done by everyone too. (Thanks to Kai Seng for the upload)

More update soon (If i get a good internet connection to upload the pictures. :D)

Life and Family

2009-12-07T17:28:00.002+08:00

Life is just too short. Little by little, days by days passing by. We just don't spend enough time with our family.

Family is all we have. It can't be replaced with money. It's even more valuable than money. Even if you earn millions in a month, do you have the love? Do you have a family? It's pointless having such big amount of money without "anything" which is rare. There's only one family, and none can replace that.

Parents, brothers and sisters. Appreciate the moment you are with them. If it's unavoidable, at least make one call back home and go back visit and stay for few weeks.

The bond is always there, and you can't break it. Nothing can replace that bond. Facing the pain of a lost ones is cruel. That is where you have to appreciate them, even if they punch you in the face, or kick you out of the house.

Praying for those to lost their family members. Be strong! God will always be there for you! God bless!

Hectic week

2009-11-20T12:54:00.003+08:00

It has been a hectic week because of the group project which is currently in progress. Neglecting my blog for so long was not the thing I wanted. Well, maybe part of it was and it's because I don't know what to write. :)

Even if i'm writing about something, I'll follow what's in my mind which is the group project. I'll be complaining about everything, including my group members. :p

But it's unnecessary because I don't want to spoil my reputation through internet. Wahaha!! I left one more assignments to go and I hoping everything will be done in time. I will be presenting on my project soon, and hoping it goes well too.

Last week, I went for the Cheras Baptist Church thanks giving dinner. It was whole lot of fun. I get to know more friends and help around. It's a group of Nottingham boys becoming the Umbrella squad. We've become the shader for the church members because it's raining heavily.

We had photos and lots of laughter. The dinner was great and I've never been this excited for so long with friends around us all. I'm looking forward for more.

Group photos

I wanted to thank Our Heavenly Father, for this wonderful dinner and friends. May You bless everyone. Amen!

Pictures!!

2009-11-04T23:20:00.003+08:00

It has been a while I've never upload any photos into any of my post. Tonight I've posted 3 photos. It's about my Final Year Project literature review.

It's been hard to upload my photos into the blog because of slow internet connection, and I wanted to try Flickr and ended with frustration. I can't upload any of these photos. Oh well, there might be some problem which is out of my hand i guess.

Reading my journals. Table packed with stuffs.

As I've mentioned that I'm in the third year, which is my final year here. A lot of readings for my literature review. Maybe I can't find what I wanted and somehow I got more than 20 journals. -.-"

It's hard to get something related to your project because there are varieties of topic being researched by anyone in the world. You'll just have to get the important point which is related to your work.

My log book in pink, or maybe violet -.-"

So, reading one journal is not enough since this is called "Final Year Project". o.O

Anyway, these photos I've taken with my sister's Nikon D60 DSLR. It's fun to have a DSLR with professionals settings you can manually change according to the surroundings.

The above picture is the product of Aluminium block that I've machined out from workshop. First time do the machining so the surface is quite rough. :p

That's all for tonight. I need to continue my work. I'm tired now. Hm...

God bless everyone. Good night!

The day I had Nikon D60

2009-11-02T21:42:00.002+08:00

I borrowed my sister's Nikon D60 this week. I have this passion of photography, especially the nature scenery or maybe some other things too.

I can't get my photos to upload on Flickr because of my bandwidth being eaten by other user. -.-"

I'll repost again when I'm using the internet alone. :) God Bless everyone.

2009-10-31T11:17:00.002+08:00

It's Saturday, weekend. What would you do if you fed up doing the same thing everyday? Me? I ended up playing games, facebook and movie. -.-"

As usual, every morning i woke up early sleeping less than 8 hours. That's my routine night sleep. :p You know why i sleep less than 8 hours? Because my neighbour is renovating his house. Drills, and knocking on the walls.

Every single day, it's like an alarm clock for me. An artificial ones. Swt.. -.-"

Anyway, I'm not going to church this week. My sister is coming and i'll be staying at her place. She booked new condo here and i'll be checking her house later. Yay! I got a house to stay in KL! :D

Have fun to everyone that i know in church. I'll miss it. HeHe!

2009-10-30T10:14:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating my blog. Somehow I can't find anything to write in here. There's a lot of interesting stories around, but I just can't get any title for some post. I ended up doing other stuff.

Well, I just update what I wanted to say here. Somehow I wanted to talk about something here but in the end, I wrote this. -.-"

Great day ahead for this weekend to everyone. Have fun.

I know I won't. o.O

ConneXion Semenyih Night!

2009-10-23T22:54:00.005+08:00

Just came back from the ConneXion House. We had ice-cream sundae night! But I came late because I was thinking of not going. But Kai Seng called so I went in the end. By cycling.

It was tiring!! Going to the ConneXion House wasn't that tiring, but going back to my house is really tiring. I'm forcing myself to cycle hard without stopping because it's quite late where the road is very dark. Only part of the road was lighten with the road light.

It's not that I'm scared of the dark. It's the people I'm scared of. I'm scared of people robbing me, and etc (Don't really want to mention bad things though. :p). I got sore knee and I can't breath properly. Man, I'm too weak in terms of my stamina. Had to change my lifestyle somehow.

Anyway, we had fun tonight where we're playing guessing a word game by using actions. It was hilarious. Everyone had fun tonight with all the laughters around. :)

God bless everyone. Good night. :)

Gabai Waterfall tomorrow!!! (Saturday, 24th Oct)

Assignments, project, FYP

2009-10-21T00:32:00.002+08:00

Never thought the time passes so quickly. Fourth week of the semester already and mostly were focusing on my final year project. Doing some literature review for now. Yesterday me and my group were doing ProE for our group design project.

A mechanical durian opener. -.-

Sadly to say, there's a lot of constrain given by our supervisor. But that is good and we're trying to improve more on it. Hey, that's how design works. We keep designing our product until it satisfies our customer.

It's not easy though. Constrains!

Sometimes i had fun with the assignments, sometimes i hate them. :) But once it's all done, you'll felt relieved.

Anyway, it's just a random post. Nothing much to say too. Going for Gabai Waterfall this weekend with fellow friends in bible study group.

Good day ahead. =)

Internet is back!!

2009-10-18T14:51:00.002+08:00

Yeah, it's Sunday and my house internet is working! I'm sure how I felt today but i felt happy. I don't really know how to express it in words.

It's my first time going to Baptist Church at Cheras today, and I am happy! It's not like how I felt before. Every time when some of my friends back at my hometown asked me to go to church, I rejected them.

Today, that's not how I felt. I'm happy. :D

Anyway, God is good all the time. And all the time the God is good. :) God bless everyone.

Final Year in Nottingham

2009-10-10T12:27:00.002+08:00

I never did mention it to myself, that I'm in the final year for my degree. I'm lack of motivation when it comes to books, and notes. I got carried away with some other temptation, like Facebook, forums, Lowyat, YouTube, and some little games.

Recently I tried to get myself to sleep early between 12am to 1am. Well, it's midnight already so I won't consider this as early. It's just to prevent myself from falling asleep in the class whereby I need enough rest to keep myself awake in the next morning.

Since it's the final year here in Semenyih, I somehow do feel sad leaving here although it's months away before graduating. That is of course if I don't fail or something.

It's the same feeling when your leaving primary school and secondary school. I missed the old days. With friends around, we're all happy.

Anyway, it's the final year so good luck to everyone if it's their final year. (Why do i talk as if I'm leaving soon? -.-") Oh well, this is blogging. :D

Random

2009-10-08T23:38:00.002+08:00

It has been a tired day for me. This morning, an early morning, I went to the sports complex for badminton with my course mate. I've never been playing badminton for quite some times already. 4 months to be exact.

Since summer holiday I've never thought of do any exercises when I'm helping my dad in the office. Honestly, what I thought was if I sweat from working at my dad's office I'll be okay. I'm just an office boy by the way, which sometimes it's a hard work because it involves heavy machinery parts.

But that wasn't the case, because after I tried playing badminton today I got tired after playing for just half an hour. My stamina dropped, A LOT!

Now I'm experiencing body ache and the tiredness, and somehow I felt my sentences are all weird. o.O

My racket string broke and ended up borrowing my friends racket. We manage to play a great game today. Well, I've missed a lot of ball though and felt a little bit sorry for Adam. Wahaha!

Overall, it was a great game. At least for me it is. :)

Nights!

2009-10-07T23:00:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I'm just too quiet. Too quiet till some people think I'm a strange kind of person. I don't talk much. Hm.

Embarrassed myself in front of the people in the bible study group which I don't know what to show to everyone. Sad eh? :)

Nights.

One week in West Malaysia

2009-10-04T17:27:00.002+08:00

One week passed quickly without you knowing it. It's my third year here in Semenyih. Nothing much happened except for myself stressed out for my final year project and the optional module that I'm taking this year.

Being quite worried for the final year project, or was it just me? Sometimes, I'm thinking about myself on how I'm going to go through all these stresses. Hoping that God show me the way.

I can't handle any stress for some reason, and that maybe because of my bad temper. I tried so hard to change, but I can't see myself improving. Maybe I'm too far away from God.

Yea, I think I am far away. This year I'm just hoping to finish everything early.

Hope it goes well. :)