Didn't really update my blog so much lately. Just that my life has been just boring. Nothing much is happening. Everything is just the same routine all the time.

Getting back to Miri is like sleeping. When you started to get comfortable, you don't feel like waking up to do something different. You'll just lay down on the bed, slacking.

Usually, I would get homesickness when I'm staying in KL. But I've found the life that I wanted there. I miss being there with friends.

Now, when I'm back in Miri I just don't feel like staying here. When you're somewhere out there but not in your own home, your parents would nag everyday on asking you to come back home. Then again, once you're back home, they also nag nonstop since they are talking in front of you.

I was like, what is this? I don't come back, you kept nagging asking me to come back. Now when I'm back home, you kept on nagging also. =.="

But all is fine, and I know it's for my own good. Parents do nag, and when you become a parent you will nag towards your children too. xD

Somehow, I just don't see the point of coming back in Miri other than seeing my parents. Even coming back here, I have to think about the personal problem in the family that I'm facing. Whatever happens, it will just make me feel miserable. Emo!

Things happened, and I asked my friend about this. Why do I have this kind of problem? It's not about once or twice, but for my whole life. But my friend told me this, "Count your blessings!".

One thing I'm happy of is, I get to meet up my old friends. Talk nonstop together and laughter. This is one blessing, this should be enough for now. In this life, be grateful and whatever happens it would be just a temporary matter.

Another thing is, about the church. Somehow, I'm not that happy about it. Just felt left out by the church members. My teacher, who is also the church member told me that everyone thought that I'm from KL. =.=

But of course, one of my biggest disadvantage is not being initiative enough to communicate. Recently, I've kept everything to myself. Somehow, my heart was 'closed'. I'm not that happy. But of course, I'm still in need of God's guidance.

Whatever happens for the days to come, I hope I'm able to go through it. With God's grace, I'm sure everything will be okay.

May God bless everyone! Make your life full of joy! Christmas is coming and let's celebrate the birth of Our Lord Jesus Christ!

Lastly, I miss speaking in English. xD

Had a chat with friends tonight. Felt that I'm back in KL. xD

Really missed the time in KL though.

Today after Sunday service, I went for refreshment and had a fellowship together with new people. Honestly, I don't really felt at ease yet. I'm still trying to adapt.

And it's also the first time after a month, the Pastor came talking to me. :)

He intro to me a group leader of a cell group and exchanging numbers together. Still, in the church now I only know 3 to 4 people other than my teacher and her son.

Let see how it goes for the month to come.

Job hunting has currently stopped and I'm still looking forward to return back to KL. Had just applied for Shell this afternoon. Just trying my luck on it for now. :)

God bless everyone. :)

Miri

2 weeks I'm back in Miri. Lack of updates here. Not happening much either. Just work and all. Still helping my dad around at the office. Were busy some of the times but also there's boring time.

Have been thinking about how would my life goes. Not sure when to go back KL, or stay in Miri permanently. Still waiting for the answer.

The church I went was okay. Not used to the Methodist style. Still, I love how it was done in the church I went in KL. Miss the friends in KL too. Also, frisbee. I hardly get any work out since I got back. Being in the office with work really makes me tired.

Once off office hour, went back home straight. Didn't go for any exercises. I don't even know who is in Miri. The other day I was holding this frisbee disk that I bought last year. I went to the backyard and threw. No one to play with. How sad.

Anyway, still deciding on my job here. Until something is settled maybe I'll consider going back to KL again. :)

ConneXion Semenyih, miss you guys a lot.

God bless!

Yesterday was in Semenyih, today I’m in Miri

So, finally the day where I’m going back to my hometown Miri. Honestly, it felt weird going back home.

Used to stayed in Semenyih already and I don’t really miss my hometown at all for the past few months. Maybe I’m enjoying too much here.

One part of the things that I enjoyed here was hanging out with the ConneXion Semenyih gang. Other than that, going to church and praising God. That’s what I’m enjoying the most.

Holy Spirit is working through us all, guiding the people around and telling them how Great Our God is.

In Miri, I’ve never been a permanent church member. You’ll either see me this week and probably not in the next few weeks. Now, I’m telling this to myself “I will serve God where ever I go”.

Good luck to everyone on their starting of the academic year and hopefully I’ll see you all back here again. I started to miss everyone already.

It’s sad, but I have to go back seeing the condition, and depended on God. Whether I’ll stay in Miri or KL, I’m still waiting for God’s answer.

Love you guys always! Keep it up and spread the word of God!

Last week in West Malaysia

So, it’s finally the last week in West Malaysia. Had a lot of fun with friend hanging out. Going to miss my friends here.

But of course, life moves on and I’ll see what’s coming next when I go back to Sarawak. Plenty of comfort zone in Miri, but one thing I hope is that I continue to go to church and also try to exercise more.

Church have been great, learn a lot of things and of course made a lot of new friends although I’m much older than the youth.

Wanted to take this opportunity to thank my friends for guiding me all the while. I know it’s too early to write this but it’s been so long that I never update my blog.

And also, wanted to apologize for the emo-ness post earlier. xD

Of course, with God’s blessing I will see what comes ahead of me and thankful for that.

God bless everyone and hoping you all will do well in studies and career.

A day without doing anything useful

It’s a rainy day.

Woke up quite early because of my phone’s alarm. Snoozing it quite a few times. Hm, wait I snoozed my phone from 9am till 10am. Adui~ xD

The actual plan for today was to go to Lowyat. But turns out raining earlier and change the plan to Sunday.

Does any of you ever thought of why something happened on you? As in, if something happened do you turn to God askin why it happened or do you turn to yourself asking was it your fault?

A question that’s have been in my mind for quite sometime already.

Windows Live Messenger 2011 Beta

I’m using one of the application that is an option to download and install. I’m trying out now to post this up and see if it stays the same or whatsoever.

Cheers~

UPDATE:

Voila~ I’m using it now and this is my post! This is fun! xD

By the way, this application is called Windows Live Writer Beta! Try it.

I don't understand sometimes when people come chatting with me, they always involve "money". It involves my financial status which include my family background.

Sincerely speaking, I've always hated people always said something like "Wah, so rich!" Or, "Your dad sure sponsor one la!", Or "Don't act la!". You think everything can be solve with money is it?! Grow up la!

IF I am THAT RICH, I wouldn't be seeing you here in Malaysia for 3 years. Some even went to UK to study and where am I? I'm in MALAYSIA! I have difficulties myself which people don't understand. Why wouldn't you said something like that to those who bought a lot of stuff, without thinking of their own financial background?

I work, I earn my own money. I don't depend on other people. I went looking for job, I have to think of the expenses. I buy stuffs for breakfast, lunch or dinner, I have to think of how much is the food! Do you think I'm like some who spend their money without thinking of how hard my parents earn that money?

I did that all the time! To release my parents burden I have to think of other ways to reduce the expenses. Why don't you call those big tycoon boss as rich people rather than splatting you words at me saying me this and that?

I'm just trying to say that I don't want to burden my parents with money now by borrowing money to buy a transportation or something else here in KL. I would rather earn my own money to buy one!

Again, I am not acting being poor or anything! I'm just thinking on behalf of my family financial background. I just wanted to humble myself but still some still wanted to throw everything at me.

If I offended anyone here, you think for yourself here. I respect everyone but you who said me that way.

Well, it's decided. I'm going back on 8th October. Wasn't a sudden plan though because I have been thinking quite a lot. Since my dad wanted me to go back, then I have no other choice.

I can imagine when I go back, "What would I do? Which church I'm going? Will I find any jobs in Miri?" The first thing is most probably stay at home until any of my friends call me out. Well, that is IF I have any friends. Do I?

A lot of questions in my mind. Booked MAS Airline because I love the architecture of KLIA. Blah~ Just kidding. It's just the service I love about it. Not saying I'm rich or something, but it's the cheap fare.

Have a doubt on getting myself an iPod Touch 4G. Still deciding on getting one or not. xD

For the pass few weeks, I've been thinking whether I should go back to Miri or not. I still wanted to stay in KL and look for job. But, since graduated for 3 months I only got 4 calls. I guess that's a lot better than no one call me. HaHa!

It's been a dilemma case. I've been staying in Semenyih for too long.

Going back to Miri, there's definitely a car for me but no place to go. Unlike KL, no car but plenty of places to go.

Sigh, I still can't decide.

All the years of studying, I'm not sure if it's enough for me to earn back that much money in a short period of time. I know it's impossible unless I really think of some other thing to earn back the money that my dad spent on me.

Graduated yes, but then looking for the job I wanted is hard. KL, maybe not the place for me to look for job even though there's public transportation provided. Honestly, I hate the KTM train service. Inefficient!

Delayed for most of the time, and that's what they are famous for. Even the air conditioning doesn't work some of the time. The worst experience I had is the trip to Klang. From Mid Valley train station to KL Central, the train came without air conditioning.

Imagine the train is full of people, and full of body contact with each other. Plus, no air conditioning. With only that one station stop, my shirts are wet! Even one of the American tourist was complaining and said "This is ridiculous!".

That is not a good impression towards Malaysia.

Anyway, this is one of the thing that Malaysia need to change. Efficiency, and it is important!

I have nothing to write about, heh~ One story to another. Love to do typing, and that is why some times I like to chat with friends. :)

I........... don't know what to say! Heh~

Honestly, I don't know what to write about. Just, another random post which I have no idea of writing. xD

It has been the third month after finishing my degree. After struggling I finally get to graduate. Grateful to Our Father In Heaven. I have never thought I could have finish my studies in KL.

Seriously, it is hard. Regretting for not getting second upper is pointless now. I'm grateful that I've been improving since year 1. My average increases bit by bit. I'm proud of that. :) God is in control.

Now, I'll be staying in KL for a while on looking for a job here. I'm still jobless but trying hard to find one. Been in the first interview, and that is something good where we learn to talk.

Learnt something from the interview:

1. Never say, "I don't know." This is a very very very bad answer. Advised by Adam.

2. Think before you answer, take your time.

3. Be confident with your answer even if you think it's a little boasting.

4. Always have the will to learn everything since study and work is 2 different thing. (My opinion though)

These few days, I've been thinking of going back to Miri. I do miss Miri sometimes, but not as much as before already. But, until I get my job maybe then I'll go back. If things doesn't go well, I will be back in Miri.

Summer holiday have been really boring besides on going to church. Still trying to get through my lazy attitude, and this morning I've at least done something. I've cleaned my toilet. xD

Nothing to be proud of, but I just knew that having to do something is fun and at least it's meaningful. :)

God bless everyone.

Sometimes we all tend to think, Why does this happen to me? I have always ask this myself non-stop since I was a kid. Well, only some of you know what really happen. Thanks for listening.

There's a lot of other people having the worst situation than us. I always have this selfish thinking of myself because a lot of other people having a good family and all. But I never think about other people who have never known their loved ones. Who have never spend more time like I have.

Yes, we are selfish at a time when we're down and frustrated. Every family have their difficulties in life. All this happen with a reason and I am very sure of that. And of course we have to believe in why God gave us this path. Strength to deal with that matter.

Okay, I sounded weird now. I don't really know what I'm writing already. But what I'm trying to say is, things happen for a reason, and we should appreciate everything what is in front of us. Regretting will be useless because it already happened. We have to be strong, and appreciate.

Trips

Last week, Adam and I went to Ipoh and came back to Semenyih on Thursday. Went to Klang and came back on Sunday. It was a happening week! It was fun.

We did go-kart at Ipoh, and we were drifting! It was fun drifting on the corners!! Hehe!! And we had lots of food. Non-stop eating! It is fun trying out new food.

Klang's bak kut teh is nice! Especially the dry bak kut teh. Never did like bak kut teh back at my hometown Miri. But Klang's bak kut teh is a lot better.

There's too much of things on the trip. All I can say is fun and exciting!! xD

Today is one of the happening day too. Me, Adam, Audri and his brother went to KLCC for a stroll. Looking up to the tall buildings, I told myself that we should appreciate having to be able to walk and see the scenery. :)

Convocation is coming. Don't really looking forward to it that much. But, it's a blessing that I'm able to finish my degree although with my lousy results. Sigh. But, praise the Lord that I've overcome! :)

God bless everyone!

Which denomination are you? Catholic? Protestant? Which is better?

For what I think, is that every denomination is the same. We're all brother and sister in Christ. There's no such thing as I'm better than you or whatsoever.

There's only one Christianity in this world. If one would say his denomination is better, I'll just say "Your Christian, that's all. Don't make a fuss about it that your denomination is somewhat good".

If i offended anyone I'm sorry, but we're Christian. That is the only important thing.

It's the second week of July. Never know time so quickly pass by. At first, it was the church camp and ended few days later. Then, news of friends beloved ones past away.

Next week, me and Adam will be going to Ipoh for few days trip. Then, on the weekend to Klang. After that? ConneXion Conference, followed by convocation. A happening month.

Already applied for job, but still there's no reply from any of them. I was thinking if I should go back to Miri to help my dad while waiting for the reply. But, I still don't feel like going back yet because I don't find any joy there.

If I go back, I'll slack even more. Not going to church and stuff. Enjoying the good stuff back home is not what I wanted. I want to learn, involving in engineering company. Speaking of engineering, I never thought of this before.

Now, I'm very excited to work in an engineering company. Before this, I've never thought of it. The first thing I'll think is business. People tend to say, studies and work is two different things. I'm not sure about big companies if they needed to use what we've learnt.

Having to work now, really make me feel uneasy. Scared of being scolded, scared can't do well, scared of everything. Maybe I just think too much on negative more than positive. Argh~

I'll see how everything goes. I just hope to stay in KL to work on engineering related stuff before I go back to Miri. Pray that everything goes well. :)

Death

A week where I heard bad news all around. Something happened back home, and church members beloved ones past away.

Death, it's a part of life. A life where you won't know what may happen the next day. Your happy today, doesn't mean you'll be happy tomorrow. Life is where you meet every single challenges for us all, to be stronger.

Having your beloved ones leaving the world, is the saddest feeling in the world. Dealing with this matter needs time to heal, and also to be stronger.

Seeing friend's dad past away, a friend asked me, "If this happens to you, are you ready to deal with this?" That makes me think, am I okay with it? I'm not sure.

Death is a part of life that we have to face sooner or later.

Everything that happens, God is in control. Are you ready to face the sadness?

End of June. Due to my laziness, I haven't started writing my resume. Thought of give it a go on Jobstreet websites but they need a resume.

Still, I'm not sure of how to write a resume. Was it suppose to be an introduction to myself? Bluffing of what you can actually do doesn't help i guess. Well, maybe that's what interview is for. Heh~

These few days have been helping the ConneXion House for the painting. Plenty of work need to be done. But it's good though. At least I'm doing something rather than staying in my room staring at facebook or other websites.

I get tired when I'm bored. That's when sleepiness comes. xD

Graduation day left few weeks to come. I'm not that excited with it. Because I'm still planning if I need to go back Miri or not. Sensing from how my dad spoke to me on the phone, he wanted me to go back and help him.

Some how, I don't feel like going back Miri. Because I see more things here in KL. Just that I'm not sure if I can handle the difficulties towards the job. For the moment there, I know I'm just scared of working. Not sure of how it will be.

How will the people there treating each other? How pressure that I will get? What target that I should get? What if I don't meet that target?

Plenty of stuff running through my mind.

I hope I can get the job here. It's not the time to go back Miri yet. I wanted to see more.

Painting day

ConneXion Semenyih did some painting today. Me, as well as 8 awesome brothers and sister from the US came together for the help.

At first purchasing the colour for the exterior wasn't that nice. But, it turns out great. ConneXion Semenyih goes green for the coming semester! Yeah~

Anyway, the new layout theme for the blogger was great too. Had it done with my style. Gloomy grey. xD

You guys should try it. It looks a lot better this time. Before that, it wasn't my style. Now I really do want to blog more. More on boring stuff I guess.

So, wanted to intro for my friends blogspot. Click here! She's just graduated at well in Interior Design. Furthering her master studies still. For her blog, she's doing an extra work to earn some money. So, do stop by at her blog.

Wanted to redesign your house interior? Look for her! Or contact me. Enjoy!

CBC Church Camp

Just came back to Semenyih again today in the evening. Went for a trip to Cameron Highland for the church camp. First time participating, and it was fun. :)

Dragged to become the group leader, which I don't have any experience in leading. I can't lead I would say. I'm not smart either. We did well I guess. 3rd position. First timer, okay?

Still, getting to know new people is hard for me to start a topic. I did try though. During the discussion for the group presentation, we're kind of like enjoying too I think. They were laughing with some funny expression and jokes I did.

Well, it was fun for me. But I'm not sure about the others. The only thing I know being a group leader is to take care of them all. 3 kids are under me, so I have to make sure everything is okay for them.

I hope they enjoy themselves though. Being a leader, wasn't my style. And I'm bad in leading. An experience for me, so maybe I can improve next time. I don't even know if I'll be joining anymore though.

Anyway, met new friends and learn a lot of things especially about God. :) Nothing is greater than God and His Son, Jesus Christ.

God bless everyone. :)

Summer break

I just realized now that since the summer break started, I've spent only 2 weeks here. It's been like for a month already. I've never keep track on the time and the date.

Without knowing again, I've watched 2 Taiwanese drama series. Now, ongoing for the third. It was fun watching, laughter, sadness, etc.

This morning, I woke up and switching on the extension adapter and it turns out spoiled. Blah~

For now, I'm officially jobless. Still, I don't have the mindset of finding job now. Still waiting for my results, hoping for the best. As long as I don't fail, I'm fine with it. I know what result I would get, and worried that I can't find any jobs here in KL.

Worst come to worst I'll go back Miri, which I don't feel like doing so. I'll leave it to God, whether I'll be staying in KL or go back to Miri. Now, I'll spend my time playing first. Hoping that I can stay in KL to find a job. :)

God bless everyone.

BHP Petrol Station

You know what? I take back my words again about the BHP Petrol Station.

Eric: The company told the workers not to open the door to anyone. They have to apologize as well.

Anonymous: Don't go around people blog posting the same comment!! Put your situation on the girl's shoe. How would you feel?

BHP Petrol Station should apologize, and to the worker, your too obedient! Can't you even think properly when the person already threw his IC at you?! Retards!!

My condolences for the girl's family.

有些人，事情发生了时候才来找我。

可是，没有事情的时候你当我是 “Hi bye" 那种朋友。

Wake up call~

This morning I dreamt about something. It's like a wake up call for me, and it's the first time ever.

I was in this place, more or less like a MPH bookstore, where there's a lot of people walking and reading all around.

I was with a friend (Adam), walking in that place also, looking around. So, as we were walking we heard a song was played. It's Michael W. Smith singing "The Stand".

The song started at the bridge, and everyone sang along. Not one, or two singing. It was everyone. After this song, the next song came in. It is a praise and worship song also. Everyone was dancing and jumping along praising God.

Me and Adam was laughing, and watching with joy as all the people was praising God. The first wake up call that really makes my day. I was smiling when I woke up.

What is it? A sign? Not sure, but it really touches my heart when the people jump with joy praising God. :)

Anyway, had fun with friends yesterday at the church and meeting old friend. Frisbee game was fun and very VERY tiring. Heh~

That's all for today, and God bless everyone. :)

End of study life

Today it's the last paper. I'll have to say, I don't really feel anything. I don't feel happy nor sad.

At first I thought that I would jump for joy when I finish this last paper. But, no. Not one bit of happiness is in me. Hm...

终于考完试了。

心情没什么特别的开心。

有时候，陪伴了一个人不代表他会喜欢你。而是自己想太多。

自己知道没有机会了，是时候放下。

现在我希望，他可以开心的过。希望他可以找一个对他更好的人。

我对自己说过，什么都不要想。

可是，我还是不能放下。

时间还过了真快，我还想认识你多一点。

可是，这是老天的安排。我无能为力。

我的朋友说的对，我还是"Ah Ngau"。

一天到晚不读好书，而拙了其他的事情。

现在，我自能说对不起。我没有勇气要对你说，我喜欢你。

可是，喜欢不代表爱。

一切都是自己害自己。

好烦哦。。。。。

"Kidnapped"

Today, something happened. See the quotes? "Kidnapped". Yes, I'm being kidnapped by someone.

But, I'm at home all the time. Blah, what am I writing here.

Anyway, someone called my sister's boyfriend's mother (too long already, call her Aunty then), saying that I'm being kidnapped by someone.

The person who is calling, pretended as me. Here's the conversation (more or less same xD):

"Me": Aunty!! I've been kidnapped by someone!!! Please help me!! Help me pay for the ransom!!

Aunty: (Thinking of who is it, and assumed it was me) Why? Why are you being kidnapped? Aren't you suppose to be in uni??

"Me": I don't!! They just come and grab me and went inside the car!! They injured my hands and legs already!! Please!! Help me!!!

Kidnapper: So how?! You want to pay or not?! If you don't pay I will chop his hand and leg!! You better pay!!

Aunty: (Getting nervous and worried) How much do you want? I only have a little amount of money!

"Me": Aunty! Please!! Help me pay RM3,000 first! I will call me father to repay you back! Please!!

Aunty: (Worried more and gets her bank book out)

After that she went to her friends place asking for advise from her friends. Her friend told her, that it was a scam.

Soon after that, I received a call from my sister.

Me: (Looking at the phone, felt uneasy that something had happened)

Sis: Hello? Where are you now?

Me: At home lo. Why?

Sis: (Felt relieved) Someone called aunty saying you're kidnapped by someone!

Me: No le! I'm at home all day. And Kevin (my brother) is in uni since morning already.

Sis: Okok! So nothing happened already, you better call aunty say you're fine.

Me: Okok!

Then I called, telling her that I'm fine and nothing happened to me. Being worried, I called my brother just to make sure again. Everything is fine.

After that, I thought of it again. Why would a kidnapper asked for RM3,000 instead of RM300K? Kidnapping is a serious offence and you'll be jailed for it. First time being in this situation, it's really scary.

I've been worrying for the whole afternoon that something might happen to me or to my brother. Thanks to Kai Seng for the prayer. Appreciated it very much. If not I won't be so calm today.

Talking about today again, the paper is bad. Sad....

Can't do much with it already, I'll just focus on my last paper on Saturday. Hope I can pass? Hm...

Anyway, mixed feeling today of being worried, uncalm mind, with stressful thoughts of exams, and had fun in the ConneXion house where I'm being bullied. HaHa! I had fun too. HeHe!!

God bless everyone. :)

I am Ah Ngau~ =.=

This is what my friend told me. I'm Ah Ngau. For what reason? For looking from far but not telling.

I was like what?! HaHa!! I laughed!

He said he was like that before. And now, he improved. Being brave.

Me? Still the same. What a sad case. And I will forget everything after the exam. Not much to care for anymore. :)

Third paper today. Hope I can do the questions. Quite worried about it. And I'm still being drifted off somewhere in my thought.

God help me~ T_T

My left eye twitches for a few days already. Felt something was not right, I think.

:)

Okay~ What should I write this time? Hm...

Anyway, today was my second paper. I can't finish it on time. T_T Sad part is, the thing that memorize didn't come out in the paper. Some question that you're expecting to come out never come out!

Sad, and I really hope I can score this paper. Seems like the hope fell into the drain already. The third paper which is on next Tuesday would be the hardest among all the modules for this third year.

I'm scared of it. I scared I fail that paper because it is a very difficult module. Why do I even choose that module anyway? =.=

I'm going to rest for tonight and start another new module to study tomorrow. Not new, but just to revise and do past year questions. :)

Can't wait to finish the exam, but I will miss the friends in Nottingham soon. Argh~

Have a good rest tonight, and study more tomorrow. (I hope I do it, because honestly, I won't be doing it. Let's just say, I'm fed up with studying. xD)

Quiet cool night

Came back from studying in a friend's house. A productive day I would say. :)

Walked back home, which is just few houses away. It was cool and cold night after the rain. I looked up to the sky, I see stars. Not many but enough for me to enjoy the beauty of the night.

It's like looking at something and yet it's very far away. The only thing you can do is just watch. Nothing more. How sad...

I thought back of myself again, yes my mind drifted off again. Thinking unnecessary things. I told myself, this is not the time to think about it.

Or it's just me avoiding and not getting rid of it? Sad...

Anyway, next paper is on Thursday at 5pm. Hope I can do well for this paper.

Praying for everyone for the exam. God bless.

我只想对你说，我只能够看着你快乐。

我没有那么的勇敢要对你说，我爱你。

为了你，都值得的让你开心。

你笑，我也笑。可是，我知道我心里很难过。

你的幸福是惟一要紧的事。

我只能对自己说，放弃吧。。。。

How was it? Nice? Broken Chinese I guess. xD

Ever since I'm around 10 to 12 years old, I have not been exposed to Christianity. As I went into secondary school, I know a little bit of it but not until the extend where I'll go to church every week.

No, I've only started to go to church when I'm in form 4 and form 5. A few of my friends are Christians and I've went to a lot of this Christian concert thingy, whatever it is. I still don't have that devotion in it.

Of course every family have their own problems. And I considered mine to be very serious? Because I've been in this "problem" since I was a little kid. Yeah, it was a bad experience. Lots of trouble. But I'm sure there's more people having their difficulties too. Pray for them.

Anyway, I'm doing good now just that I'm seeing lot of problems in Christians. Of course I'm in it also. I have my habit and bad temper too. Bad temper as in I'll scold or violently do something. xD That's me!

Since I've been in KL, I've changed a little from there. Able to joke around and play around not like before. I was a quiet person and never smile at all. :)

Being a Christian, talking is easy. Without action, your just talking nonsense telling everyone. I've seen a few Christians. Some don't even care of what problem your facing, even if that's your own relatives. This is what I'm facing till today.

Outside your saying you are Christian, but are you doing the rightful way of a Christian? Let's not talk about how human is not perfect. If you are one Christian, do what you're being preached of. Taking Jesus Christ as a role model.

Egoism happens too. Everyone have it. But not until the extend where you're leaving other brothers and sisters in Christ to one side and treating them like a stranger. So, what's the difference of you being a Christ who acts that way, than those atheist who really treat people nicely?

If I were to say this, those who don't believe Christianity, they will go to hell. This is according to bible. So, if your being preached to do this and not that but your doing that, what's the point if you repent? Or you never know what you did and you don't want to admit it? Would you go to hell too? I'm curious of this.

Why would an atheist go to hell, than those Christians treating each other badly? I don't know much about Christianity yet. I'm still learning. That is why I'm asking this. No offence or whatsoever. :)

Treat everyone fair enough even though they are stranger. If you Christians start treating other people differently, they will start to avoid you and not going to church frequently. Or worst, go to a new church. Or they would say this, "I don't want to go to church today or even in the near future because of how they treated me!".

And here, we've lost one brother or sister in Christ. Human error, big problem. Error occur, but they don't want to listen and that's the end. They would rather stayed at home than facing you in the church.

Practice what you're being preached.

Another thoughts came into my mind too, why do Christianity separated with Catholics, Methodist, Anglican, and etc? Isn't it all about Christianity? One true God? Jesus Son of God?

Why do they even separate it? What's the point? Christian is Christian, nothing more. Separating it would be like causing trouble if one denomination saying this denomination is preaching the wrong thing.

All these came up to my mind, and this really troubles me.

As I go further learning, I know it's only about Our Father in Heaven and His Son, Jesus Christ. Not us humans. I'm sure there will be guidance from Him as I'm learning more and more.

Patience is important, God is love. God is good.

God bless everyone! :)

Heart breaking incident

I came across this website, which was quite a long news back.

It was heart breaking news that happened in Singapore.

Here's the link through google:

http://www.google.com/buzz/jahatself/C9fLijb3id7/if-not-for-the-title-bearing-slight-reference-to

Here's the original website (On the second post entry):

http://taxidiary.blogspot.com/

Appreciate what you have now.

Mother's Day

It's Mother's Day.

What's the point of writing "Happy Mother's Day" on facebook anyway? Call back home and talk to your mom. That's the only thing you should do. xD

The old friends

Chatting with old friends are fun. Lots of thing to talk about. Jokes and laughter.

Never had this fun of chatting for so long. Everyone separated after secondary school and only contact through facebook or MSN, or now Skype.

Downloaded Skype just to chat with an old friend of mine. Having not to login into Skype for 3 years plus, surprisingly it still works. HaHa!

She's a fun person to chat with. Anything goes. We're all good friends, and that's where friends is all about. :)

:)

退了一步，让他们开心。。 :)

Awesome God and The Stand

Great song from Hillsong and Michael W. Smith. Thanks to Adam for sharing. :) Love the song a lot!

Morning prayer

Had read a few chapters in Psalm. Somehow, I really like Psalm. Really calms myself down.

Thanks Tim! If not I won't be doing this. :)

Looking forward to progress more on my studies.

God bless everyone. :)

Friendship

In the reality world, everyone are not perfect. But we take Jesus as a role model. That is where we learn something.

People do mistakes.

Forgive and forget.

An apology to you too as I don't deserve of judging any of you.

But it's humans nature, we only can change ourselves not to do it. Keeping this in my mind.

Sorry again. :)

Psalm 146: 3 - 6

Thanks Kenin for the verse. :D

Do not put your trust in princes,

in mortal men, who cannot save,

When their spirit departs, they return to the ground,

on that very day their plans come to nothing.

Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob,

whose hope is in the Lord is God,

the Maker of heaven and earth,

the sea, and everything in them,

the Lord, who remains faithful forever.

After expressing something out it is good. Wanted to thank a friend for spending the time listening to me.

With effect from now, facebook is deactivated. Concentrate on my studies. I'm sure something good will happen.

Things happened then let it be. I can't do anything about it. When that's how I'm being treated, that's how I'm going to avoid.

No one to trust but a friend who understands.

God bless everyone. :)

Study week

Studying is always my weakness. However, I tend to learn more when there is discussion among friends. This is where I can learn more. When I ask questions, I learn from there.

Just that I know myself, I don't talk and always have been quiet. Scared to ask. But I've tried my best. Assignments done with understanding? Yes, I understand more when friends explains to me. I learn more things from friends rather than listening to lecturers.

One part of me still don't change. I'm too depended on my friends. If I'm alone, I'll studying blindly. Oh yes, I learn a bit but doesn't help much. Everyone have their weaknesses. Realizing now is too late because it doesn't change anything.

If I'm behaving this way, what will happen if I come out to the community? Sad eh? Haha... Anyway, today felt much better than the previous few days. But I still don't have the appetite to eat. Don't know why.

Fed up with the food. Last night ate one pear and chocolate milk. That's all. If I'm thinking of going to Connaught, I don't think I'll eat much. If that's the case I might as well don't go. :)

Well, see if everything goes okay and IF I'm hungry, I'll go. Probably won't i guess.

God bless everyone. Pray for each and everyone of you. Good luck to everyone on the coming exam. Let's make it the last effort and do well. (Talking to myself actually xD)

Mixed feeling

Somehow, I have a mixed feeling now. End of year three. Sad, happy, and etc.

Sigh.... maybe that's why I'm restless... =.=

Restless

Being very restless today. I don't know why.

Restless....

Very restless........

>.<

Weekend with family

My dad came last Friday night together with my brother. My brother will be studying in Nottingham too, so my dad have to bring him here and at the same time have a walk around KL and Semenyih.

Had a great time with my dad. Talk about a lot of stuffs. Business, family, and more. My mom didn't come though, cause she said it's just a few days so she would come other time.

Had dinner with my dad, my sis, my sis's bf, my brother and my brother's gf. Wah~ All couple, and I'm the only single in the family now. How sad... Haha~ Jk! Nothing to be sad of. Cause I don't need any love as I have one from God. :)

If I'm given a partner yes, I will appreciate. If not I'll spend my life with God. :D

Nothing wrong with that right? When the time comes, it will come. Don't need to be so desperate for a partner. Just, be normal. :)

I really miss my home and my family now. Spending one day wasn't enough for me. My dad and I had a conversation yesterday and he told me to go back Miri to help. Somehow, I was thinking he really needs my help.

I don't think I can help much due to my lack of socializing with people. I don't talk much with the new person that I met. Or, I don't even talk at all. Even in the church, I only mingle around my uni friends. Sad huh?

Anyway, people learn everyday. At least I'm able to talk more than last time. I'm more to a quiet type of person. That is why I'm still single~ Wahaha!

Last assignment to go for the coming due on Thursday. Hope I can do it my own (I suspect I won't cause I don't know a thing about that module). But better than never try at all.

Praying for my dad on a safe journey back Miri. God bless him and everyone. ^-^

Hectic week

I'm still awake now, doing my assignment that is due today at 4.30pm. I have not rested since I came back to my room. I've only closed my eye for 5 minutes.

Mentioning this again doesn't change anything. I'm not fit for engineering. But it's my final year and I've to do my best. Counting on friends is not what I intend to do, but it seems that I've lost interest in study for years already.

Tired brain, can't think of anything to write on the assignments. Oh~ what could possibly go wrong again if I've faced this kind of difficulties.

Tired.... of... everything......

Due date for final year project is this Thursday! Draft have been sent to my supervisor, but hopefully nothing much changes that I have to do.

Spent whole night doing it and slept at 3am. And, the assignment is a pain! I want to thank my friends that helped me. Adam, Nelson, Zi Jian and Eric.

Seeing my supervisor tomorrow for the FYP. Hope can finish everything by Wednesday.

I pray that God bless each and everyone of us, and guide us through the hectic week.

God bless everyone. :)

真的很烦啊!

Assignments and final year project

Having to know that studying have taken 23 years and I was still not able to study well. That is quite an embarrassing thing to know. Maybe I'm don't have the interest in studying already.

Needed help from friends, which is something that I don't want to do. Yes, I wanted to try everything myself but that's my limit. I can't do further. I do know of myself that I'm tired of studying. And, I know not only me would be thinking of this.

Anyway, it was fun for the water war on the ConneXion Night. I don't exactly know what we are doing when the announcement was made on Wednesday Bible study night. The only thing that I know is, it involves water.

I don't really have the mood just now actually, because of FYP and assignments. But, enjoying for tonight won't do harm. The only thing is, I'll get less sleep. I might not sleep for the few days before the due date of the assignments and FYP next week.

Expecting it from the start already so, no more complains. :)

Nothing much to add, and I have to continue my work. Good luck to everyone for the hectic week ahead. God bless~

Can't do my assignment. Don't understand at all. Get zero better. Sad...

BLah~

Blueh~~

It has been a stressful semester. Somehow, I don't know if I can pass some of the modules. I'm quite worried for my result now. Even in the presentation, I gave my best but then it's not how your presenting it to your lecturer. Is the amount of work that you have done.

I've been blast with questions regarding my work for final year project by the assessor, but it wasn't enough for them. All I can do is just give up and let them comment. Say more does not do good for me.

Yes, I don't have enough work so far. Yes, I didn't get any accurate results. All these are there for a reason, but we can't just tell it to them without any proof.

Yes, blamed myself for not doing enough work. Work has to be done but little troublesome matters at the back drags everything down.

If I protest, nothing will be done. Even if I ask for their help, they will just ignore us students. Their mood swings every time, and we students are the victim.

If it was easy, I've done all my work from the starting of second semester. Some do not know of the matter that we are facing. Matters like the technician, the equipment, and limitation.

Why do I even choose this title in the first place? And now I don't even know how to do my assignments after studying the notes. What worst may come?

I have the feeling, I will fail. Shame to myself for being stupid in studying. I want to give up. Sigh.....

I've been lazy to update my blog because of the works that I have now. Although, some of the time I do slack. But hey, at least I'm doing my work now.

Having to do the final year project presentation this week, it really does stress me out. I'm scared of what would the answer be asked, and will I do well for 15 minutes?

I rehearse a lot of time in the afternoon and a few times again at night. I presented around 14 minutes. This is quite dangerous as I'm worried of how I would explain. I'm nervous as it is my final year project.

Talking about how I did if of course I know what I did, but just that I don't do much research? But I do now, get a lot of informations already. For now, I'm just hoping I don't present overtime.

After presentation, I'm still worried because of the assignments. Honestly, I don't know what is happening in control and heat transfer classes. With much of my attention during the class, I am listening attentively.

I do understand some. But hardly to understand everything. This doesn't help in my assignments and yes, I need help. But, I felt uneasy of asking friends for help. As I've said, I don't know what is happening in the class and would they even help?

Anyway, important thing now is the presentation. Hope everything goes well.

God bless everyone. :)