Somehow, when I looked at myself I was like, What? I just did that? In a way, things are not easy at the moment. Trying to help out, but things are rather complicated. Am I selfish?
Seeing myself on the road, it's like I'm getting worst and worst day by day. Can I even have a peace at heart for a while so that I don't think and worried too much?
God spoken through my friends tonight and it struck me. I don't know how I felt honestly, but I know if I don't change now and forever be this way no one would ever look on to you for help since I can't help myself now.
Anyway, it's something that I need to release telling it out. Still, a question pop out from a cell group member. What's you plan tomorrow? Next month? These are the things that I need to know. Otherwise, I'll be in a wrong direction.
Or should I wait for God's answer? Sigh...
Oh Lord, work into my life. I'm still clueless of the things I did and for the things I wanted to do.