Monday, May 31, 2010

Wake up call~

This morning I dreamt about something. It's like a wake up call for me, and it's the first time ever.

I was in this place, more or less like a MPH bookstore, where there's a lot of people walking and reading all around.

I was with a friend (Adam), walking in that place also, looking around. So, as we were walking we heard a song was played. It's Michael W. Smith singing "The Stand".

The song started at the bridge, and everyone sang along. Not one, or two singing. It was everyone. After this song, the next song came in. It is a praise and worship song also. Everyone was dancing and jumping along praising God.

Me and Adam was laughing, and watching with joy as all the people was praising God. The first wake up call that really makes my day. I was smiling when I woke up.

What is it? A sign? Not sure, but it really touches my heart when the people jump with joy praising God. :)

Anyway, had fun with friends yesterday at the church and meeting old friend. Frisbee game was fun and very VERY tiring. Heh~

That's all for today, and God bless everyone. :)

Saturday, May 29, 2010

End of study life

Today it's the last paper. I'll have to say, I don't really feel anything. I don't feel happy nor sad.

At first I thought that I would jump for joy when I finish this last paper. But, no. Not one bit of happiness is in me. Hm...





Friday, May 28, 2010



我的朋友说的对,我还是"Ah Ngau"。



Wednesday, May 26, 2010


Today, something happened. See the quotes? "Kidnapped". Yes, I'm being kidnapped by someone.

But, I'm at home all the time. Blah, what am I writing here.

Anyway, someone called my sister's boyfriend's mother (too long already, call her Aunty then), saying that I'm being kidnapped by someone.

The person who is calling, pretended as me. Here's the conversation (more or less same xD):

"Me": Aunty!! I've been kidnapped by someone!!! Please help me!! Help me pay for the ransom!!
Aunty: (Thinking of who is it, and assumed it was me) Why? Why are you being kidnapped? Aren't you suppose to be in uni??
"Me": I don't!! They just come and grab me and went inside the car!! They injured my hands and legs already!! Please!! Help me!!!
Kidnapper: So how?! You want to pay or not?! If you don't pay I will chop his hand and leg!! You better pay!!
Aunty: (Getting nervous and worried) How much do you want? I only have a little amount of money!
"Me": Aunty! Please!! Help me pay RM3,000 first! I will call me father to repay you back! Please!!
Aunty: (Worried more and gets her bank book out)

After that she went to her friends place asking for advise from her friends. Her friend told her, that it was a scam.

Soon after that, I received a call from my sister.

Me: (Looking at the phone, felt uneasy that something had happened)
Sis: Hello? Where are you now?
Me: At home lo. Why?
Sis: (Felt relieved) Someone called aunty saying you're kidnapped by someone!
Me: No le! I'm at home all day. And Kevin (my brother) is in uni since morning already.
Sis: Okok! So nothing happened already, you better call aunty say you're fine.
Me: Okok!

Then I called, telling her that I'm fine and nothing happened to me. Being worried, I called my brother just to make sure again. Everything is fine.

After that, I thought of it again. Why would a kidnapper asked for RM3,000 instead of RM300K? Kidnapping is a serious offence and you'll be jailed for it. First time being in this situation, it's really scary.

I've been worrying for the whole afternoon that something might happen to me or to my brother. Thanks to Kai Seng for the prayer. Appreciated it very much. If not I won't be so calm today.

Talking about today again, the paper is bad. Sad....

Can't do much with it already, I'll just focus on my last paper on Saturday. Hope I can pass? Hm...

Anyway, mixed feeling today of being worried, uncalm mind, with stressful thoughts of exams, and had fun in the ConneXion house where I'm being bullied. HaHa! I had fun too. HeHe!!

God bless everyone. :)

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

I am Ah Ngau~ =.=

This is what my friend told me. I'm Ah Ngau. For what reason? For looking from far but not telling.

I was like what?! HaHa!! I laughed!

He said he was like that before. And now, he improved. Being brave.

Me? Still the same. What a sad case. And I will forget everything after the exam. Not much to care for anymore. :)

Third paper today. Hope I can do the questions. Quite worried about it. And I'm still being drifted off somewhere in my thought.

God help me~ T_T

My left eye twitches for a few days already. Felt something was not right, I think.

Thursday, May 20, 2010


Okay~ What should I write this time? Hm...

Anyway, today was my second paper. I can't finish it on time. T_T Sad part is, the thing that memorize didn't come out in the paper. Some question that you're expecting to come out never come out!

Sad, and I really hope I can score this paper. Seems like the hope fell into the drain already. The third paper which is on next Tuesday would be the hardest among all the modules for this third year.

I'm scared of it. I scared I fail that paper because it is a very difficult module. Why do I even choose that module anyway? =.=

I'm going to rest for tonight and start another new module to study tomorrow. Not new, but just to revise and do past year questions. :)

Can't wait to finish the exam, but I will miss the friends in Nottingham soon. Argh~

Have a good rest tonight, and study more tomorrow. (I hope I do it, because honestly, I won't be doing it. Let's just say, I'm fed up with studying. xD)

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Quiet cool night

Came back from studying in a friend's house. A productive day I would say. :)

Walked back home, which is just few houses away. It was cool and cold night after the rain. I looked up to the sky, I see stars. Not many but enough for me to enjoy the beauty of the night.

It's like looking at something and yet it's very far away. The only thing you can do is just watch. Nothing more. How sad...

I thought back of myself again, yes my mind drifted off again. Thinking unnecessary things. I told myself, this is not the time to think about it.

Or it's just me avoiding and not getting rid of it? Sad...

Anyway, next paper is on Thursday at 5pm. Hope I can do well for this paper.

Praying for everyone for the exam. God bless.

Sunday, May 16, 2010







How was it? Nice? Broken Chinese I guess. xD

Ever since I'm around 10 to 12 years old, I have not been exposed to Christianity. As I went into secondary school, I know a little bit of it but not until the extend where I'll go to church every week.

No, I've only started to go to church when I'm in form 4 and form 5. A few of my friends are Christians and I've went to a lot of this Christian concert thingy, whatever it is. I still don't have that devotion in it.

Of course every family have their own problems. And I considered mine to be very serious? Because I've been in this "problem" since I was a little kid. Yeah, it was a bad experience. Lots of trouble. But I'm sure there's more people having their difficulties too. Pray for them.

Anyway, I'm doing good now just that I'm seeing lot of problems in Christians. Of course I'm in it also. I have my habit and bad temper too. Bad temper as in I'll scold or violently do something. xD That's me!

Since I've been in KL, I've changed a little from there. Able to joke around and play around not like before. I was a quiet person and never smile at all. :)

Being a Christian, talking is easy. Without action, your just talking nonsense telling everyone. I've seen a few Christians. Some don't even care of what problem your facing, even if that's your own relatives. This is what I'm facing till today.

Outside your saying you are Christian, but are you doing the rightful way of a Christian? Let's not talk about how human is not perfect. If you are one Christian, do what you're being preached of. Taking Jesus Christ as a role model.

Egoism happens too. Everyone have it. But not until the extend where you're leaving other brothers and sisters in Christ to one side and treating them like a stranger. So, what's the difference of you being a Christ who acts that way, than those atheist who really treat people nicely?

If I were to say this, those who don't believe Christianity, they will go to hell. This is according to bible. So, if your being preached to do this and not that but your doing that, what's the point if you repent? Or you never know what you did and you don't want to admit it? Would you go to hell too? I'm curious of this.

Why would an atheist go to hell, than those Christians treating each other badly? I don't know much about Christianity yet. I'm still learning. That is why I'm asking this. No offence or whatsoever. :)

Treat everyone fair enough even though they are stranger. If you Christians start treating other people differently, they will start to avoid you and not going to church frequently. Or worst, go to a new church. Or they would say this, "I don't want to go to church today or even in the near future because of how they treated me!".

And here, we've lost one brother or sister in Christ. Human error, big problem. Error occur, but they don't want to listen and that's the end. They would rather stayed at home than facing you in the church.

Practice what you're being preached.

Another thoughts came into my mind too, why do Christianity separated with Catholics, Methodist, Anglican, and etc? Isn't it all about Christianity? One true God? Jesus Son of God?

Why do they even separate it? What's the point? Christian is Christian, nothing more. Separating it would be like causing trouble if one denomination saying this denomination is preaching the wrong thing.

All these came up to my mind, and this really troubles me.

As I go further learning, I know it's only about Our Father in Heaven and His Son, Jesus Christ. Not us humans. I'm sure there will be guidance from Him as I'm learning more and more.

Patience is important, God is love. God is good.

God bless everyone! :)

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Heart breaking incident

I came across this website, which was quite a long news back.

It was heart breaking news that happened in Singapore.

Here's the link through google:

Here's the original website (On the second post entry):

Appreciate what you have now.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Mother's Day

It's Mother's Day.

What's the point of writing "Happy Mother's Day" on facebook anyway? Call back home and talk to your mom. That's the only thing you should do. xD

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

The old friends

Chatting with old friends are fun. Lots of thing to talk about. Jokes and laughter.

Never had this fun of chatting for so long. Everyone separated after secondary school and only contact through facebook or MSN, or now Skype.

Downloaded Skype just to chat with an old friend of mine. Having not to login into Skype for 3 years plus, surprisingly it still works. HaHa!

She's a fun person to chat with. Anything goes. We're all good friends, and that's where friends is all about. :)

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


退了一步,让他们开心。。 :)

Awesome God and The Stand

Great song from Hillsong and Michael W. Smith. Thanks to Adam for sharing. :) Love the song a lot!

Morning prayer

Had read a few chapters in Psalm. Somehow, I really like Psalm. Really calms myself down.

Thanks Tim! If not I won't be doing this. :)

Looking forward to progress more on my studies.

God bless everyone. :)

Monday, May 3, 2010


In the reality world, everyone are not perfect. But we take Jesus as a role model. That is where we learn something.

People do mistakes.

Forgive and forget.

An apology to you too as I don't deserve of judging any of you.

But it's humans nature, we only can change ourselves not to do it. Keeping this in my mind.

Sorry again. :)

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Psalm 146: 3 - 6

Thanks Kenin for the verse. :D

Do not put your trust in princes,
in mortal men, who cannot save,
When their spirit departs, they return to the ground,
on that very day their plans come to nothing.

Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob,
whose hope is in the Lord is God,
the Maker of heaven and earth,
the sea, and everything in them,
the Lord, who remains faithful forever.
After expressing something out it is good. Wanted to thank a friend for spending the time listening to me.

With effect from now, facebook is deactivated. Concentrate on my studies. I'm sure something good will happen.

Things happened then let it be. I can't do anything about it. When that's how I'm being treated, that's how I'm going to avoid.

No one to trust but a friend who understands.

God bless everyone. :)